Story: Life of a Shy Guy


    Episode 1

    Sometimes I just wonder why I was
    created this way. why I can't seem to be
    comfortable when I'm in the midst of
    people, especially ladies. I had been this way ever since I was a kid. I'm already on
    my early twenties but my issue is not
    getting better. It had even worsened. I
    can't believe that at this stage of my life, I
    still don't know how to approach ladies. I
    had come in contact with a number of nice ladies that I love and would love to
    spend the rest of my life with, but due to
    my shy nature, I could not approach them
    and had lost them all. I still can't believe
    that I'm still a virgin at this stage of my
    life. Not that I'm a saint or something. I had always wanted to take this virginity
    of a thing off me, but don't know how to
    go about it. I had never dated any lady all
    my life. I dare not tell my friends that I'm
    still a virgin, because they would all laugh
    at me. I always brag about how I made a lady beg me to get her laid whenever I'm
    with them, but in reality, no such thing
    had happened. I always believed I could
    cope with my shy and introverted nature,
    but not until I gained admission into but not until I gained admission into the
    university. it was when I gained admission into the university university. it was when I gained admission into the university that I
    realized there is place for people like me
    in the university. it's either I blend in and
    associate with people or be forever
    isolated. it's been three weeks since I
    gained admission into the university. We had already completed the registrgained admission into the university. We had already completed the registration
    process and lectures had also started.
    The way I always see students in my
    department discussing and associating
    with one another, made me wondered if
    they had known one another already, before they gained admission. I wishethey had known one another already, before they gained admission. I wished I
    could be like them and interact more with
    my coursemate, but my introverted
    nature wouldn't allow me. I always try my
    best not to be noticed in class. I dare not
    raise my hand to answer any question asked by a lecturer, even though I knew
    the answer. One day in class, just
    immediately we settled down for lectures,
    our introduction to statistics lecturer, Dr.
    Mike walked into the class to introduce
    his course. After 5minutes of speaking, he asked a question which no one could
    answer. He was very disappointed and
    decided not to speak further until
    someone answer his question. I knew the
    answer to Dr. Mike question but dare not
    stand up to answer his question. Just imagining the number of eyes that would
    be boring holes on my body when I stand
    to answer the question could make my
    mind go blank. Dr. Mike stared at us from
    the podium while we stared back at him,
    with no one making attempt to answer his question. After the long silence in the
    class, he decided to speak. "so out of
    over a hundred students in this class, no
    one can answer the question I asked" he
    said Everyone in class remained silent.
    "this class can't continue until someone answer my question. How am I suppose
    to teach you if you don't know the basic
    of this course" he said The class still
    remained silent. He stared silently at us.
    After a while if silence, an idea crossed
    his mind. "I know what to do" he said walking closer to us. "I will start pointing
    you to answer the question and once you
    fail to give me the right answer, you will
    leave this class and never attend any of
    my classes for the rest of this semester."
    he said in serious tone. A faint murmur could be heard in the class "we you all
    keep shut" he shouted in angry tone. The
    look on his face showed that he was very
    serious with what he said. I wished
    someone could just answer his question
    and take me out of the tensed situation i was in. The class had suddenly becamand take me out of the tensed situation i was in. The class had suddenly became
    too hot for me to stay. I prayed silently
    that God should divert the lecturer's
    attention away from anything that would
    make him notice me in class. Not that I
    didn't know the answer, but I just couldn't face the whole class. I could see the
    lecturer staring at everyone faces,
    looking for who to point. he stared at my
    direction and a shiver went down my
    spine. I suddenly started sweating
    profusely. "Hey, you over there" he said pointing at my direction. Even though he
    was pointing at my direction, I was so
    sure he was not pointing directly to me.
    because there is no how he could have
    pin-point me out of over a hundred
    students in class. so I looked back to confirm who he was pointing at. the
    person he was pointing at must be
    behind me. "why are you looking back?
    I'm referring to you" he said referring to
    me "is it me sir?" I asked to be sure he
    was referring to me. "no, it's me" he mimicked me "come on stand up and
    answer my question" he barked. I
    suddenly became weak when I realized
    he was actually referring to me. how was
    I suppose to stand and answer question
    in a class of over hundred students. Just as I slowly stood up, I could see over a
    hundred eyes boring holes on my body. I
    tried not to turn my

    Episode 2

    Just as I slowly stood up, I
    could see over a hundred eyes
    boring holes on my body. I
    tried not to turn my head, because my mind could go
    blank if my eyes meet with
    any lady in class. I cursed the
    devil silently who had
    succeeded in putting me in
    such situation. "will you answer my question
    or get out of this class" Dr.
    Mike barked when I didn't say
    anything after a while of
    standing
    "erm.........erm.........." I stammered
    "actually.......... I..........I"
    That was the last words I could
    remember
    saying. I knew I was still speaking, but
    could not remember what I was saying,
    because my
    mind was far from what I was saying. All
    my
    attention was focused on the eyes in
    class boring holes on my body, especially the
    ladies. I kept wondering what might be
    on
    their minds as they stared at me. could
    they be
    thinking bad of me. could they be saying I'm
    not smart enough to be in this class. All
    these
    and other thought occupied my mind.
    It was when I heard a big round of
    applause from the class that I realized I had
    answered
    the question. I focused my attention back
    on
    the lecturer standing in my front. He
    observed me for a while before speaking. "so you knew the answer all this while
    and
    you didn't answer" he said
    I kept mute
    "why did you wait until I point you before
    you answered the question?" he asked I remained mute
    "Anyway, I will pardon you this time,
    because
    I like the way you answered the question.
    you
    gave a detailed explanation just the way I
    want it. what's your name?" he asked
    "Christian" I answered sharply.
    "okay Christian. Once you know the
    answer
    to a question, don't wait until you are called
    before you answer the question. is that
    clear?"
    I nodded in affirmation
    "good" he said
    "you can have your seat now" I sat down immediately and let out a hot
    breath which I didn't know I was holding
    all
    this while.
    Dr. Mike walked back to the podium and
    continued with the lecture. All other questions
    he asked were answered by other
    students
    without delay. The class went on
    smoothly
    and he joked from time to time which made us
    laughed out loud. I later found Dr. Mike to
    be
    an interesting lecturer.
    After lectures for that day, I quickly
    rushed to the school restuarant to have rushed to the school restuarant to have lunch
    before I
    collapse. it's as if the few words I said in
    class
    had drained all my energy. I didn't even
    allow my food to be placed on my table before I started devouring it.
    After a while of eating, I heard someone
    screaming my name from behind. my
    heart
    missed a beat when I realized it was the
    voice of a lady. I slowly turned to see a lady
    standing at the entrance with smiles on
    her
    face. she must be my coursemate for her
    to
    know my name. she must have heard it when
    I mentioned it to Dr. Mike. she started
    walking towards me. my heartbeat kept
    increasing in geometric progression with
    every step she took. she got to me and
    sat opposite me.
    "hi Christian" she said smiling
    I couldn't say anything. I couldn't even
    stare
    at her. I just kept staring at my food on
    the table.
    " hello" she stressed the word when I
    didn't
    respond.
    I waved at her and said "hi" in a whisper. I
    was sure she didn't hear that, because it was
    not audible enough for her to hear.
    She observed me for a while.
    "Christian are you okay?" she asked
    "yes" i responded sharply
    "okay, i just want to thank you for answering
    Dr. Mike's question in class today. you are
    our saviour. who knows how many
    students
    he would have sent out of his class if not
    for you. I'm very sure I would have been
    among
    those that would be sent out because I
    had no
    idea of the answer. you did really well. by
    the way, I'm Joy." she said
    I didn't respond. I just kept staring into
    air.
    "are you sure you are okay?" she asked
    "I........ I.......... I want to go home. I feel
    dizzy" I said She quickly stood up from her seat and
    sat
    closer to me. she placed her hand on my
    forehead.
    "Are you sick?" she asked
    Her closeness made me more uncomfortable.
    "I'm not sick. I'm just tired. I need to rest."
    I
    answered.
    "okay you can start leaving. make sure
    you take care of yourself" she said feeling
    concerned.
    I stood up immediately and was about
    heading
    for the door.
    "wait" she said walking towards me "let me have your number so that I can
    call to
    check on you"
    I didn't like the idea of giving her my
    number. what am I suppose to say to her
    when she calls. she stretched her phone to me
    and I collected it. I typed my number and
    gave her back her phone.
    " okay I will call you" she said
    "I hope you are coming to school
    tomorrow?" she asked
    I nodded in affirmation
    "okay see you then"
    I waved at her and left the restuarant

    Episode 3

    I got home and freshened up. I lay on my
    bed and stare blankly at the ceiling. The
    event of the day flashed through my
    mind and my mood suddenly changed. I felt bad that I couldn't answer a
    question
    confidently in class. Even when joy
    approached me nicely, I couldn't even
    say a
    word to her. Why am I always like this? will I
    ever be confident enough to speak with a
    lady
    without feeling nervous? when will I stop
    behaving this way? Am I the only one in
    this world with this kind of personality? what
    did
    I do wrong to be born with this kind of
    trait?
    Am I cursed or something? It seems like
    i'm the only one in the world with this trait. I
    have never come across any shy guy all
    my
    life. where did I get this kind of trait from?
    I was lost in thought.
    The vibration of my phone brought me back
    to reality. I stretched my hand to my table
    to
    get my phone. I stared into the screen
    and saw
    that it was an unknown number. My heart missed a beat when I realized I gave Joy
    my
    number. I sat up immediately still staring
    at
    my phone. I quickly rehearsed a few
    words I would say to her when I pick the call. I
    took a
    deep breath and placed my hand close to
    the
    green button. While I was still
    contemplating on whether to pick the call, it suddenly
    stopped ringing. it started ringing almost
    immediately. My phone suddenly became
    too
    heavy for me to hold. I needed to pick the
    call. I won't allow my personality to drive away someone who seems to care about
    me.
    I summoned all the courage in me to pick
    the
    call. I placed the phone on my ear and
    said "hi" in the nicest way I could.
    "Guy you didn't try at all. you have
    forgotten
    about me. you can't even call me" the
    voice
    at the other end said. it wasn't actually a lady's voice. it was a guy's voice. I felt
    relieved when I heard the voice.
    "please who am I speaking with?" I asked
    "so you don't recognize my voice?"
    The voice rang a well. I knew I have
    heard that voice before. I thought for a while.
    "Daniel" I called
    "yes it's Daniel. I thought you won't
    recognize
    my voice." he said
    "wow! so it's you Daniel. long time" I said happily
    "yeah, long time" he responded
    "How are you?" I asked
    "I'm fine and you"
    "I'm fine too" I responded
    "so how is school?" he asked "school is fine"
    "I hope those girls in school are not
    giving
    you problem"
    "not at all" I responded
    "is this your number" "yes this is my new number. I said I
    should
    call you, since you don't want to call me"
    "Daniel you know that's not true. if I had
    your number, I would have called you" I
    said "okay o, I just said I should hear from
    you"
    "you did very well. I'm very grateful. I will
    save your number."
    "okay then, we will talk later." Daniel said
    "okay, thanks for the call" I ended the call and stared at my phone
    screen with smiles on my face. it was
    good to
    hear from Daniel. Daniel is my childhood
    friend and a very good adviser. I placed
    my phone on the table and lay on my bed.
    Just immediately I placed the phone on
    the
    table, it started vibrating again. I took table, it started vibrating again. I took the
    phone from the table and picked the call
    without looking at the caller. "hello Daniel" I said into the phone
    "Christian" the caller called
    I froze when I heard a lady's voice. I
    slowly
    removed the phone from my ear and
    stared into the screen. The number was
    different
    from Daniel's number. I slowly placed the
    phone back on my ear. I could feel my
    heart
    pounding in my chest. "hello" I said calmly
    "Christian how are you? This is Joy"
    "Joy. how....... how are you?" I stammered
    "Christian you don't sound too well.
    should I
    come over to your place?" "No, no" I cut in immediately
    "I'm not at home"
    "where did you go to?" she asked
    "I'm in the hospital"
    "hospital!" she exclaimed
    "is it that serious?" What did I just say? I couldn't believe I
    just
    told her I was in the hospital. I quickly
    took
    back those words
    "no Joy, I mean I went to get some drugs from
    a pharmacy.
    "okay, how is your body" she asked
    "I'm fine now. I will call you back. I'm on a
    busy road right now" I said
    "okay" she responded I ended the call and took a deep breath. I
    lay
    on my bed and didn't know wh

    Episode 4

    I woke up very late the next day. I
    quickly took my bath and got prepared
    for school. I left home immediately
    without having breakfast. I was supposed to have lecture by 8:am but it
    was
    already 8:15am. I got to the building the
    lecture was holding and peeped through
    the
    window. The lecture was already going on
    and the lecturer could be seen at the
    podium
    impacting knowledge on the students
    with
    enthusiasm. Every student focused there attention on the lecturer standing close
    to the
    door, and that was exactly the same
    place I
    was supposed to walk in through. I was
    sure everyone would focus there attention on
    me
    when I walk in, because there's no how I
    would walk into that class without being
    noticed. I stood at the window for close
    to 10minutes trying to come up with an idea
    of
    how I would walk into the class without
    being
    noticed. I felt a hand on my shoulder, and
    I turned to see my coursemate standing
    beside
    me. I was relieved it was a guy.
    "are you not going in?" he asked
    "I was about going in" I answered
    "are you just coming?" I asked "yes" he answered
    "let's go in before we miss the important
    part
    of the lecture." he said
    "okay" I responded
    He walked ahead while I followed behind him. I tried as much as possible to hide
    behind
    him as we walked into the class. I never
    removed my gaze from the floor until I sat
    down at the back seat. I took a deep
    breath and silently thanked the guy who showed
    up
    when i needed him. I'm not sure I would
    have
    been able to walk into the class alone. I
    would have stayed outside until the end of would have stayed outside until the end of the
    lecture. The lecturer continued with the
    lecture. After few minutes of listening, I
    was
    able to understand what was being
    taught. I was quite good in maths, and the course
    that
    was being taught was actually
    'introduction to
    mathematics for economist'. Did I
    mentioned earlier that I'm an economics student.
    when the class was over, the lecturer
    handed
    a brown envelope to our course rep,
    which I
    believed contained our test script we did in
    the previous class. To make matter worse
    for
    me, our course rep happened to be a
    lady. I
    had never approached her to get any information from her. Even when I
    needed
    an important information which I believed
    only her could provide, I still didn't
    approach her. Her beauty alone is
    intimidating. she distributed the script back to
    the students. just as the scripts went
    round, I
    could hear murmur from every corner of
    the
    class which means the scores were very bad.
    She had already shared all the scripts but
    I
    still didn't get mine. I wanted to bring to
    her
    notice that I had not received my script but
    didn't know how to approach her. I only
    sat
    on my seat staring at everyone faces as
    they
    stared at their script with a frown. My course rep started walking towardstared at their script with a frown. My course rep started walking towards
    me,
    immediately she was done distributing
    the
    script. I tried not to feel nervous, because
    she might not actually be coming to meet me.
    she
    got to me and sat next to me. I was very
    nervous but tried not to show it.
    "Christian how did you do it?" she asked
    immediately. "do what" I asked confused.
    she brought out a script and showed to
    me.
    "while everyone was scoring less than 10,
    you
    scored 23. How did you do it" she asked I looked at the script in her hand and
    realized
    it was actually my script and I scored 23
    just
    like she said. but I still didn't know why
    she did not give me my script when she was
    sharing it and had to bring it to me
    personally.
    "you are really brilliant" she continued
    when
    I didn't respond "Anyway, I just want to tell you that you
    just
    officially made yourself my private tutor.
    you will be tutoring me starting from next
    week."
    My eyes widened in shock when she said that.
    Me that cannot even talk to a lady for a
    minute will now sit down for close to an
    hour
    to tutor her. she better rethink was she
    just said. what kind of difficult position did
    she
    want to put me in. I better look for a way
    to
    decline.
    "so how will it be comfortable for you? will I
    be coming to your place for the tutorial,
    or
    you will be coming to my place?" she
    asked.
    None of the options seem comfortable for me,
    I wanted to say that but dare not say it.
    "anyhow you want it" I answered against
    my
    decision.
    "Okay, we will be using both my place and
    yours for the tutorial. That would be fairer
    right?" she asked
    "yes" I answered
    Just when I was still dealing with the lady
    beside me, Joy came and joined us. she sat at
    my other side, making it two ladies sitting
    beside me. I haven't been myself sitting
    beside
    my course rep, and Joy had also joined
    us, making my blood pressure to rise.
    "hi Sharon" Joy greeted our course rep
    "hi Joy" Sharon replied
    "Christian how is your body now?" Joy
    asked
    me "fine" I answered briefly
    She saw my script with Sharon and
    collected
    it. she stared at it
    "23!" she exclaimed
    "Christian you scored 23" All eyes in class

    Episode 5

    A ll eyes in class turned to my direction
    immediately they heard my score. I
    felt embarrassed at the number of
    eyes staring at me. All of a sudden, a crowd had formed round us. My test
    script
    kept going from one hand to the other.
    The
    number of questions that I was asked got
    me frustrated. I only tried to force a smile to
    conceal my frustration. I was relieved
    when a
    lecturer walked into the class. Everyone
    went
    back to their different seat. The lecturer went
    straight to the business of the day
    without
    preamble. He was quite a strict lecturer.
    His
    class was not interactive at all. He asked no
    question and didn't entertain any
    question. I
    seemed to like his method of teaching
    because
    it would save me the stress of answering question in class.
    I sneaked out of the class just few
    minutes to
    the end of the lecture to avoid any
    question
    from my coursemates. I left the faculty building and was about going home. from my coursemates. I left the faculty building and was about going home. I
    heard
    someone screaming my name just when I
    was
    about going out from the school gate. I
    turned to see my coursemate, Mustack running
    towards me. Mustack was the same guy I
    walked into the class with today. He was
    gasping for air when he got to me.
    "guy how far" I said to him
    "guy are you flash?" he asked "it hasn't been up to a minute I saw you
    leaving the class and you are already at
    the
    school gate. why didn't you wait until
    lecture
    was over before leaving the class?" he was over before leaving the class?" he asked
    "the lecturer was already rounding up
    when I
    left" I answered
    "so where are you heading?" he asked
    "home" I answered "you are going home. have you forgotten
    today is Friday?" he asked
    His question made me confused. I never
    remembered planning to do anything
    with
    him on Friday. "what's happening on Friday?" I asked
    "are you asking me like you don't know"
    he
    said.
    "don't you know that we are supposed to
    be out there having fun on a Friday"
    This guy didn't know the kind of person I
    am,
    because if he knew, he wouldn't be
    taking
    about going out to have fun. "there is this particular place very close to
    school, it's always lively on Fridays. Let's
    go
    there so that I can buy you a drink"
    On a normal day, I would have declined
    his offer, because I don't like being in such
    places. I'm never comfortable being in
    such
    places, but this might be my opportunity
    of
    making friends with him. I have always been
    a loner since I gained admission into a loner since I gained admission into the
    university. so I would not reject his offer.
    "Are you sure that the place will be lively
    just
    like you said?" i asked trying to show interest
    in his offer
    "you just have to see the place. it is
    always
    flocked with ladies" he replied
    My heart missed a beat at the mention of ladies but I tried to look calm.
    "Wow! that would be great then" I said
    masking my nervousness with a smile
    "then let's start going there already" he
    said
    smiling also "alright bro" I responded
    We headed straight to the bar and just
    like he
    said, the place was very lively. the
    number of
    ladies I saw when we walked in increased my
    heartbeat. we located an empty seat at
    the
    front and sat down. Mustack beckoned
    the
    waiter and he approached us immediately.
    "what will you like to have?" the waiter
    asked
    Mustack
    "give me malt" Mustack answered
    "what will you like to drink?" Mustack asked
    me
    "anything" I answered
    He looked at me in disgust
    "is anything a name of drink?" he asked
    "why are you behaving like a shy lady who
    went on a date for the first time with her
    crush" he said to me.
    His words hit a vital part in my body. He
    just
    referred to me as a shy lady. Even when I tried as much as possible not to show my
    nervousness, he still noticed it.
    I could only force a smile.
    "okay give me malt" I answered.
    The waiter left immediately to get our
    drinks while Mustack and I engaged in a
    conversation.
    After few minutes, I saw Mustack looking
    at a
    particular direction. I followed the
    direction he was looking at to realize he was
    actually
    looking at a particular lady at the far-
    right.
    "that lady is very beautiful" he said to me
    "yeah" I responded uninterested "I won't forgive myself if I don't get her
    number" he said
    "do you know her?" I asked
    "must I know her to get her number" he
    answered
    Mustack stood up and was walking towards
    the lady
    "where are you going?" I asked
    "to get her number of course" he
    answered
    I watched as Mustack approached the lady and
    sat beside her. just after few minutes of
    taking
    to her, I could see the lady laughing out
    loud.
    what could he have said to her that was making her laugh? I suddenly wished I
    was
    like Mustack, but no, I'm Christian, the
    shy
    guy. When will I ever make a lady laugh
    just the way Mustack did to that lady?
    All of a sudden, Mustack and the lady
    stood u

    Episode 6

    A ll of a sudden, Mustack and the lady
    stood up and was walking towards
    me. My heart kept pounding fast as I
    wondered what they might be coming for. They got to me and sat down on the
    available seat beside me.
    "Christian this is Kate. she's also a
    student of
    our school. she's a micro-biology student"
    Mustack introduced her to me immediately
    they settled down.
    "Kate this is Christian, my coursemate"
    he
    continued
    "hi Christian" Kate said, stretching her hand to
    me for a handshake, with smiles on her
    face.
    "hi Kate" I shook hands with her, making
    sure
    that the smile on my face was visible. Mustack and Kate continued their
    conversation from where they stopped,
    leaving me out of it. He must have
    brought
    her to our table so that it would not look
    like he had forgotten about me. I thanked
    God that
    they didn't involve me in their
    conversation,
    because the lady beside me would have
    noticed that I was shy from the way I would
    speak. I only sat down quietly, listening
    to
    their conversation, trying to see if I could
    pick one or two lines from what Mustack
    was saying. so that I could use it on a lady
    when
    I'm in difficult position. I tried to take note
    of
    the things that made her laughed out
    loud. All of a sudden, Mustack phone started
    ringing. he brought out his phone and
    stared
    into the screen.
    "I'm sorry, give me a minute" he said to
    Kate. "okay" Kate responded
    He stood up and walked out of the bar,
    leaving me alone with Kate. my heart
    started
    pounding fast immediately Mustack left.
    Why must his phone ring now. I blamed the
    caller who chose to call him at the wrong
    time.
    I knew I was supposed to engage Kate in
    a
    conversation until Mustack returns, but how
    was I supposed to do that? how will I
    start?
    what will I say? my mind was even blank
    as I
    sat alone with her. While I was still trying to come up with
    how I
    would start a conversation with her, she
    took
    her phone from her bag and busied
    herself with it. I heaved a sigh of relief and thank
    God for bringing me out of my
    predicament.
    At least her phone would keep her busy
    until
    Mustack returns. I prayed silently that she
    should not stop whatever she was doing
    with
    her phone.
    All of a sudden, she dropped her phone
    in her bag and faced me. what I prayed for not
    to
    happen was finally before me.
    I took a deep breath, trying to summon all
    the
    courage I could. I tried my best not to show
    that I was nervous, because it would be
    more
    embarrassing if she realizes I'm a shy
    guy.
    "so you are an economics student?" she asked
    "yes" I responded
    "that means you will be very stingy" she
    said
    I wanted to correct the statement she
    just made. I wanted to tell her that economist
    are
    not stingy. We only try to put our
    resources to
    the best use. we only try to be
    economical. I wanted to tell her that we only try to
    maximise satisfaction from our limited
    resources, but all I could say to her was
    "that's not true o"
    "what's not true?" she asked
    "are you saying that you are not stingy?" "no, i'm not" I defended myself
    "we would see about that" she said
    I really didn't know what she meant by
    'we
    would see about that', but I was not
    going to start thinking about it, because my head
    was
    full already.
    "okay" I responded
    "I'm a micro-biology student. you know
    my faculty right?" she asked
    "not really" I answered
    "it's very close to the faculty of
    engineering.
    just opposite Gtbank" she said
    "wow! it's even close to my faculty. that means we would be seeing each other
    often" I
    said
    I liked the way our conversation was
    going. I
    was not nervous. maybe because she was not nervous. maybe because she was
    doing most of the talking.
    "sure" she responded
    just immediately, Mustack came back
    and sat
    on the seat he was previously occupying. I
    heaved a sigh of relief when I saw him.
    atleast
    I was able to engage Kate in a
    conversation
    until he returned. "I hope I didn't keep you waiting" he said
    to
    Kate
    "not at all. Christian had made sure that I
    didn't get bored" she said
    My face curved in a smile when I heard that,
    and I gave myself a thumb up for doing a
    nice
    job.
    "good. I like that" Mustack said
    "we will start leaving now. I have something
    to do at home" he said to Kate
    "okay, no problem" Kate responded
    Mustack stood up and I stood up
    immediately
    with him "okay Kate, see you later in school" I said
    "see you too" she responded
    "let me have your number"
    Another lady asking for my number. I
    don't
    like giving my number to ladies, because I
    usually don't have anything to say when
    they
    called. she gave me her phone and I
    typed my
    number. i gave her back her phone when I
    was done.
    we left the restuarant immediately.

    Episode 7

    On our way home, Mustack insisted on knowing my place since we were heading the same way. I took him to my place. I stay in a room self contain very close to the school. I could see Mustack admiring the interior design of my room when we entered the room. "nice place you have here" he said. "thanks" He fixed his gaze on the two plastic chair beside the bed.  "wetin chair dey do for your room?" he asked His question got me confused. I wanted to ask him if he didn't know what they are made for. Like seriously, he should know that it's there for my visitors to sit on.  "it's there for my visitors convenience" I answered.  he shook his head like I just said something unbelievable.  "so if a lady visit you, you will ask her to sit on that chair" he said  "yes of course" I answered  "now I know you are still a novice in this game. don't you know that it would be difficult for things to happen when she's sitting on a chair. but when she is sitting just beside you on your bed, you won't even have to stress yourself. the closeness between you both would stir up things."  All what Mustack said didn't make any meaning to me. All I knew was that those chairs were supposed to be for my visitors convenience.    "so are you saying that you don't have any chair in your room" I said  "what do I need a chair for when there's a bed to sit on" he answered  I still didn't understand what he was saying, because I believed those chairs were for my visitors convenience.  "okay, since I have known where you stay now, let me start leaving before it get dark. I still have something to do at home" he said  "okay bro, no problem" I responded.  I shook hand with him and he left. I lay on my bed trying to see if I could give any meaning to what Mustack said.  The vibration of my phone distracted me. I took the phone and stared into the screen. my heart missed a beat when I saw an unknown number. I still couldn't explain why I always have this fear when I see an incoming call from an unknown caller. I could only think of one person as the caller, and that's Kate. why would she be calling me now. it's hasn't been up to an hour we left the bar and she was already calling. she should have allowed me to rest first.  I quickly rehearsed a few words I would say to her.  "hello Kate" I said immediately I picked the call.  "hi Christian, this is not Kate, this is Sharon"  My heart missed a beat at the mention of Sharon.  "Sharon" I mumbled  How did she get my number. I didn't remember giving her my number. This was the part I hated the most. I hated being caught unaware. when I had already rehearsed what to say to Kate, thinking she was the caller, it now happened to be Sharon. What would I say to her.  "how are you?" she asked  " hello.......... hello.......... hello I can't hear you clearly. the line is breaking" I said, making it look like I couldn't hear what she was saying.  "hello Christian, can you hear me now?" she asked.  "hello............. hello.................. hello I can't hear you" I said and ended the call before she could speak further.  Before I pick a lady's call, I always made sure that I already have prepared speech in order to reduce my nervousness. I didn't rehearse any word to say to Sharon because I wasn't expecting her to be the caller. I quickly rehearsed what I would say when she calls back. my phone started ringing almost immediately. I took a deep breath and pick the call.  "hello" I said calmly  "hello Christian, can you hear me now? this is Sharon"  "Sharon, how are you?" I asked  "I'm fine. you just left the class like that. you didn't even allow us to conclude our discussion before leaving" she said  "I'm sorry Sharon. I received an important call while in class. I just had to leave before class ended" I said  "okay, I just what to remind you of our tutorial on Monday" she said  "I'm aware" I said  "okay, I will talk to you later" she said  "how did you get my number?" I asked  I needed to know how she got my number, because I didn't remember giving her my number.  "I got it from joy" she responded  "okay, I see" I said "talk to you later then"  "okay" she responded  I ended the call and heaved a sigh of relief.

    Episode 8

    I stayed indoor all through the weekend revising all we had learnt for that week. I kept getting nervous as the new week drew closer. maybe because it was the week I would start the tutorial with Sharon. I had tried to assure myself that all would be fine, but it didn't do much because I kept getting nervous. how will I sit alone with her in a room and she wouldn't notice I'm a shy guy. I pray I don't embarrass myself when I'm with her.   The new week came and I got prepared for my first lecture for that week. I took the campus shuttle that would take me directly to the building I was having my lecture. I didn't realize I was in the same bus with my course mate, Sylvia, until she spoke to a lady beside her. I made sure she didn't notice I was in the same bus with her. I quickly brought out money from my wallet and paid for the both of us without letting her know. I told the driver not to collect money from her when she tries to pay. I believed it was the right thing for me to do. when we got to our destination, she tried to pay but the driver told her that someone had already paid for her. she asked who was the person and the driver pointed at me. that was when she realized I was in the same bus with her. she approached me and glared at me. the smile I was trying to keep on my face disappeared immediately. I was thinking she was coming to thank me, but the glare she just shot me made me nervous. she brought out some money from her purse and force it into my hand.  "next time don't try to pay for me without my notice. I didn't ask for your help" she said to me in a note of warning.  She shot me one last glance and walked out on me. I stood at that particular spot like a statue, staring at the direction she took. I tried to remember if I had said or done anything wrong to her before for her to direct such anger to me, but I couldn't seem to remember anything. this was too much for me to bear. I have never been this embarrassed all my life. I wished I never paid for her. I wished I had known this would happen, I would have avoided it. my leg suddenly became too heavy for me to lift. I managed to plod ahead to where my first lecture was holding.  All through the lecture, I didn't concentrate. I kept trying to figure out what I could have done to that lady that made her behave that way towards me. could it be that someone might have said something bad about me to her. all my effort to figure out what I could have done was fruitless, because I couldn't seem to remember anything.  I stole glances at her from time to time to see if she was looking at my direction, but all her attention seemed to be focused on what the lecturer in class was saying.  After lecture, I went to the school restaurant to have lunch. just when I was at the counter placing my order, Kate walked into the restaurant with two of her friends. I believed they had come there to have lunch also. I tried as much as possible to hide behind the guy standing at the counter with me, but my effort was fruitless because she saw me immediately she entered the restaurant. she walked towards me with her friends right beside her.  "hi" I said immediately they got to me.  "wow Christian! we meet again" she said  "yeah" I responded.  "you came here to have lunch right" she said  "not really. I'm not having my lunch here. I'm buying in a take away pack" I responded.  I initially wanted to have my lunch in the restaurant, but seeing Kate and her friends made me changed my mind, knowing fully well that I would have to be on the same table me them. That would be deadly for me. I might just collapse unknowingly.  "okay, but you are paying for my lunch." Kate said  "no problem, you can order for anything you want" I responded  "are you not buying for us also?" one of her friend asked.  "you can order for anything you want also" i said to her  "thanks" the lady responded  "you are welcome" I said  I waited for them to order for whatever they wanted so that I could foot the bill.  Just when I was about paying for their meal, the other lady beside Kate distracted me.  "sorry, I hope you don't mind paying for the one I'm taking away" she said  My mood suddenly changed when she made that statement. I tried not to show the look of disappointment on my face. so if I pay for your meal here, I would still pay for the one you will take away. am I your father? That was what I wanted to say but dare not say it.  "you can have anything you want" I said against my decision.  I watched with teary eyes as they all place their order. the amount of food they ordered made me wonder if they wanted to feed their families with it. it was certain that I would trek back home, because I was sure there won't be any money left with me when they are done with their order

    Episode 9

    I left the restaurant with just hundred naira. what those ladies did to me showed that they have no conscience. They didn't consider the fact that I'm a student. I still thanked God that the hundred naira left with me would be enough for me to take a bus back home.  After lecture for that day, Sharon reminded me of our tutorial and I assured her that it would hold. she said she would be coming to my place by 6pm. I left the school immediately to prepare myself before she comes. I made sure that everything in my room were well arranged. I placed the two plastic chairs in a spot where it would be comfortable for her, because I don't think having it close to my bed would be comfortable for her. Just exactly 5:45pm, my phone started ringing. I picked the call when I realized Sharon was the caller.  "hello Sharon" i said  "hi Christian. I'm on my way now"  "okay, I'm waiting" I responded  "I will be there in ten minutes" she said  "okay" i responded  I ended the call and took a deep breath. I assured myself that all would be well. I had prepared for this already so I had nothing to be scared of.  15minutes later, I heard a knock on my door and I knew she was the one. 'Christian you can do this'. I said to myself as I walked to the door. I open the door and froze at the beauty before me. I stared at her open-mouthed. I knew Sharon is a pretty lady, but didn't know she is as gorgeous as the lady standing at my door. it was as if she came to intimidate me with her beauty.  "will you let me in or keep staring at me" she said when I didn't say a word after opening the door.  "sorry" i said and quickly gave way for her to enter. I locked the door immediately she entered. I could see her admiring the beauty of my room.  "wow! you have a nice place" she said  "thanks" I responded "please have a seat" I said pointing at the plastic chair in my room.  She ignored the chair I was pointing at and went to sit on my bed. I stood at a spot, wondering if I was supposed to sit beside her on my bed or just sit on the plastic chair instead.  "won't you come and sit down let's start the tutorial" she said when I wouldn't move from the spot I was standing.  "oh sorry" i said and immediately went to sit on the bed.  I made sure there was a reasonable distance between us. she brought out her notebook from her handbag and move closer to me. Her closeness made me uncomfortable. I suddenly became nervous. this was what I was trying to avoid. I wouldn't be able to tutor her if I'm nervous. she flipped through her notebook and showed me a particular topic.  "I want us to start from here. this particular topic had been giving me headache."  Her face was very close to mine as she speaks. i tried not to look at her. I wasn't even looking at what she was showing me. I just fixed my gaze on the two plastic chairs in my room. she noticed I wasn't looking at what she was showing me.  "Christian, are you paying attention to what I'm saying" she asked  "yes" I said, directing my gaze to the notebook she was holding.  "so where should we start from?" I asked  she showed me the topic she wanted me to teach her.  "okay you want to learn how to use implicit differentiation to find the marginal rate of technical substitution" I said  "yes, but that's not all. you still have a lot to teach me, but let's start from there"  "okay, where is your pen?" I asked  she gave me her pen and move even closer to me, making her head to rest on my shoulder. My room suddenly became too hot for me to stay. A hot sweat rolled from my forehead down to my neck. my heart was pounding faster.  "can we start" she asked  "okay" I responded  "marginal rate of technical substitution is also known as slope of an isoquant" I paused  "okay" I continued "An isoquant depicts the different combination of input K and L that can be used to produce a specific level of quantity Q" I paused again  "okay" I continued "one of such......."  "Christian!" she cut it "why do you keep saying okay, okay, okay. I already know all what you are trying to explain. I want you to move to the calculation part. that's where I'm having problem"  "you see Sharon"I said calmly "I haven't been myself since I returned from school today. I have been having terrible headache"  "why didn't you tell me all this while?" she asked  she placed her hand on my forehead.  "have you taking drugs?" she asked  "yes" I responded  "you should have told me so that I wouldn't have come. your health is important and you need to take good care of yourself. maybe I will leave and come back tomorrow" she said  I heaved a sigh of relief when she said that.  "okay. I'm really sorry" I apologized  "you don't have to apologize. your health comes first"  "thanks for your understanding" I said  "okay see you tomorrow" she said "see you too" I responded  she stood up, carry her bag and left.

    Episode 10

    I woke up very late the next day. I left home without having breakfast. by the time I got to the school, our first lecture was already over. I later found out that the lecturer took attendance in class and said that 10marks would be awarded for the attendance. while I sat alone in the class blaming myself for waking up late, Sharon approached me.  "hi Christian, how is your body now?" she asked.  "I'm fine now" I answered    "why are you sitting here alone? aren't you going for the next lecture?" she asked.  I didn't answer her.  she moved closer to me  "what's the problem? you don't look happy" she said  "I heard that the lecturer took attendance in class and would award mark for it" I said  "yes that's true" she responded  "that means I have lost 10 marks just like that" I said  "is that why you are sad?" she asked "you don't have to worry about that. I was the one that marked the attendance. Do you think I would mark the attendance without marking you present, whether you were in class or not"    "you marked me present" I said happily  "yes" she responded.  I couldn't describe how happy I was at that moment. now I know the benefit of having your course rep as a friend.  "thank you very much. I'm very grateful" I said  "okay, now that you know you didn't lose the mark, let's start going for our next lecture" she said  I stood up immediately and we headed straight to the class our next lecture was holding. we sat together during the lecture and when the lecture was over, she followed the lecturer to his office.  It was already time for lunch by the time the class ended. I was very hungry. I didn't have breakfast before leaving home. I couldn't go to the school cafeteria to have lunch because I was scared of seeing Kate and her friends in the cafeteria. who knows what they might demand from me this time, if they see me in the cafeteria. what they did to me the previous day was still fresh in my mind.  I tried to bear the hunger until I get home but couldn't. I could hear the rumbling in my stomach, which showed that the worms in my stomach were already protesting. while I was trying to console the worms in my stomach, Mustack approached me.  "guy how far" he said  "I'm good and you"  "I'm good bro" he responded.  "so where are you heading" I asked  "I'm going to the school cafeteria to have lunch" he responded.  'thank God' I said silently and heaved a sigh of relief. Having Mustack by my side would boost my confidence. I was sure I wouldn't have to spend on Kate and her friends when Mustack is right beside me.  "I was about going to the cafeteria to have lunch also" I said to Mustack  "then let's go together" he said  we went to the cafeteria and ordered for food. just when we were about to start eating, Sylvia walked into the cafeteria. my heart missed a beat when I saw her. she went to the counter to order for food. she received her food her went to occupy the seat at the far left. I thought of  telling Mustack about Sylvia behavior towards me. maybe he would know the reason why she behaved that way towards me.  "Mustack" I called  "yes" he answered  "Sylvia seems to be angry with me" I said  "what happened?" he asked  "I don't know. I paid for her fare when I realized she was in the same bus with me, but instead for her to thank me, she got mad at me" I said  "do you like her?" Mustack asked  His question got me confused. I was saying someone got mad at me because I paid her fare and he was asking if I like her.  "I never said I like her" I responded.  "if you can't seem to get your mind off what she did to you, that means you like her" he said.  "no, I don't like her" I said  "your behavior shows that you like her. why not approach her and tell her how you feel" he said  "Mustack I don't like her" I said in serious tone.  "maybe I will help you talk to her" he said.  "please don't try it" I pleaded.  "I will. you have to learn how to approach ladies. I have noticed you don't know how to approach ladies." he said  "please Mustack, don't say anything to her. I don't like her" I pleaded  Mustack stood up and walked toward Sylvia. I watched as he approached her. The moment he sat down beside her, I stood up immediately and took to my heels. I ran as fast as I could. If she could react the way she did when I only tried to pay her fare, who knows how she would react when Mustack tells her that I like her.

    Episode 11

    I went home immediately I left the cafeteria. I didn't wait for the next lecture. I was scared of what Sylvia might say or do to me in class. it would be very embarrassing if she repeats what she did to me at the park. That same day, exactly 5:30pm, my phone started ringing. I picked the call when I realized it was from Mustack. "hello Mustack" I said "how far guy. what happened? you left the cafeteria without telling me. I realized you were no more in the cafeteria when I looked back. why did you leave?" he asked. "I'm sorry bro. I was having an upset stomach. I just have to leave without telling you" I said I knew he didn't buy that lie. I just had to say it since I had no other lie to tell him. "okay, that was why you didn't attend the last lecture" he said "yes" I responded "have you taking anything drug" he asked "yes" I answered "okay, take care of yourself. I will call you later" he said "okay" I responded. I ended the call and dropped my phone on my bed. Sharon called immediately I dropped my phone on my bed. I picked the call after taking a deep breath. "hello Sharon" I said "hello Christian, you didn't attend the last lecture. what happened?" she asked "I was not feeling too well. I went home earlier." I responded "is it that same headache?" she asked "yes" I answered "I thought you took drugs" she said "yes I did" I responded "maybe we should just postpone our tutorial until next week, so that you can take care of yourself" she said "okay, that would be nice. thank you very much" "I will call you later to check on you" she said. "okay, thanks" I ended the call and lay on my bed. All through that week, I stayed at home. I didn't attend lectures. I was scared of meeting Sylvia. I was scared of what she might say to me in class. Mustack, Sharon and Joy, all called to know why I wasn't attending lectures and I lied to them that I wasn't feeling fine. I made up my mind to call Mustack. I need to know what was Sylvia's reaction when he told her that I like her, because I can't keep missing lectures. I waited until weekend before calling him. he picked after the second beep. "hello Christian, how are you?" he asked. "I'm fine" I responded "I hope you are getting better" "yes" I responded "Mustack" I called "yes Christian" he answered "when you told Sylvia that I like her, what did she say?" I asked, waiting curiously for his answer. "I didn't tell her anything. so you believed I told her. how would I have told her when you didn't give your consent. that wouldn't be nice for me to do. I was just pulling your leg. I only went to ask her if her micro economics note was complete" Mustack said "so you didn't tell her?" I asked "no I didn't" he answered. I heaved a sigh of relief and thanked God silently. "okay I will call you later" I said I ended the call and sighed. I was happy that he didn't tell her, but at the same time disappointed in myself. I was disappointed that I could be so stupid to have missed lectures for a whole week, without any concrete reason. Just when I was about to lie on my bed, I heard a knock on my door. I wasn't expecting anyone. I knew it wasn't Sharon, because we had already agreed to postpone the tutorial until next week. I walked to the door and open it. I froze when I saw Kate standing at the door with smiles on her face. I never remember telling her where I stay. "hi Christian" "hi" I managed to respond. "you are surprised to see me right?" she asked I nodded "well, you will find out later, how I got to know where you stay" she said, walking into my room without allowing me to usher her in. She went straight to my bed and sat on it. I locked my door and went to sit on the plastic chair. I won't make the same mistake of sitting beside her on my bed, because I knew how nervous I was when I sat beside Sharon on that bed. She lay on her back and spread her hands. "I'm so tired" she said I quickly got a wine from my cupboard and gave to her. she sat up and collected the drink. "thank you" she said I went back to sit on the chair i was previously occupying while she sipped from the wine. I took a book on my desk, open a page and fixed my gaze on it, pretending like I was reading. it was better to pretend like I was reading than to stay in the same room with her and couldn't start a conversation. After 5minutes of silence, she spoke. "you stay here alone?" she asked "yes" I responded and fixed my gaze back on the book I was holding. "why is your room so hot?" she asked, fanning herself with a book. she unbuttoned the upper button of her blouse, revealing her cleavage. I tried not to look at her, because it wouldn't be nice if she caught me looking at her cleavage. After another 5minutes of silence, she spoke again. "are you expecting someone?" she asked "no" I answered "I will soon be leaving o" she said "okay" I responded After a while of deafening silence, she spoke. "do you always sit all day on that chair?" she asked "no" I responded After a while, she buttoned her blouse which she had earlier unbuttoned. She stood up from my bed, carried her handbag and walked to the door. "are you leaving?" I asked she didn't reply. I stood up immediately and walked to me her. "let me see you off" I said "don't bother" she cut in immediately I could see the look of disappointment on her face when she said that. she left my room without sparing me one last look. I stood at my door, wondering what I could have done wrong.

    Episode 12

    The following week, I made sure that I woke up very early in order to get to school on time. I knew I had a lot to cover. Sharon gave me her notebooks for me to go through all what was thought in class the previous week. I didn't go home immediately after lectures. I had to cover what was thought the previous week before going home. I located an empty class where I could sit alone and go through all what was thought the previous week. I busied myself immediately. After 10 minutes of reading, I heard someone calling my name. my heart missed a beat when I realized it was a familiar voice. I prayed silently that it shouldn't be who I was thinking. I slowly raised my head to see Sylvia standing at the door. my eyes widen in shock. How did she find me here? what is she even doing here? I thought Mustack told me that he didn't say anything to her. so he lied to me. what will I do now? how will I get out of this. what will she do or say this time? I'm finished. She started walking towards me. her every step increased my heartbeat. I thought of jumping out through the window but decided against it, knowing fully well that I might injure myself if I do that. since I had no other idea of what to do, I only fixed my gaze on the floor and awaited what would befall me. she got to me and stood beside me. "hi Christian" she said I slowly raised my head to see if she was actually the one standing beside me or not, because I was expecting her to start barking immediately she get to me. "can I sit?" she asked, pointing to the available space beside me. I didn't respond. I just kept staring blankly into air. what is she trying to do this time? I thought. "can I sit?" she repeated when I didn't respond. I nodded and she immediately sat beside me. she fixed her gaze on the book I was holding without saying a word. I was uncomfortable having her by my side. After a while of deafening silence, she finally spoke. "Christian I actually..." she paused "I don't even know how to say this right now" she continued "I don't have any excuse for my action the other day. I really don't know what came over me. I left home very angry that day, because someone offended me. I was so angry to the extent that I was having headache. I just had to unleash the anger in me before it chokes me. that was why I got mad at you when you only try to pay my fare. I'm really sorry. I just hope you can forgive me. I have always wanted to apologize all this while but was scared you might get mad at me. I'm very sorry. please forgive me" she pleaded. I didn't respond. I just kept staring into air. The fact that Sylvia, who I thought was actually coming to descend on me, was actually apologizing, made me surprised. She placed her hand on my shoulder and stared into my eyes. I couldn't stare back at her. I fixed my gaze on the floor. "Christian please forgive me. I'm really sorry" she said "I have forgiven you" I managed to say. I had to say it, for her to stop boring hole on my body. her closeness was making me very uncomfortable. I was not even angry with her in the first place. "I know that didn't come from your heart" she said "I have forgiven you. I was not even angry with you." I said "I don't believe you. Okay if you have really forgiven me like you said, let me invite you to my place for dinner tonight. if you accept, I will know that you have really forgiven me" she said 'Your place' i mumbled to myself. She wants to put me in a tight position now. why can't she just believe that I have forgiven her. now, she's inviting me for dinner. I had never been comfortable having a lady in my room. going to a lady's house might be disastrous. how will I politely turn down her request? that's one of my problem. I don't know how to politely turn down a lady's request. I always agree to all their request, no matter what it cost me. "do you accept my invitation? she asked "okay" I nodded "thanks very much I'm really grateful." she said "okay" I responded "I can see you were busy before I came. let me leave you, so that you can continue with what you are doing" she said "okay" I responded she stood up, carried her bag and left. I couldn't continue with what I was reading. I parked my books and left the class. I went straight home to prepare myself for the dinner in order not to embarrass myself in her house.

    Episode 13

    I sat on my bed trying to gather as much confidence as I could. my heart kept pounding in my chest as the day get darker. Any moment from now, I will be in Sylvia's house. I stood up from my bed, as it was no more comfortable for me to sit on. I paced in my room trying to rehearse a few words I would say when I get to her place. my gaze went to the wall clock in my room and I realized it was already 6:45pm. I was supposed to be at her place by 7pm. I was getting really nervous. maybe I should just call her and tell her that I won't be coming anymore. but she might think I'm still angry with her if I tell her that. I have to go. I have promised her already. I will try my best not to look nervous. I took my wallet from my bed and left my room. I got to her place exactly 7:15pm. I stood beside her door contemplating on whether to knock or not. After 10 minutes of standing, I summoned courage and knocked. "hold on please. I'm coming" her voice sounded from within. After about 30 seconds, the door opened. My heart missed a beat when I saw her but I remained calm. "wow! you came. I thought you won't come." she said "I already promised to come. I don't want to disappoint you." I said "please come in" she said I entered and she followed behind me. "please have a sit" she said pointing to a plastic chair beside a table. "thank you" I said and sat on the chair. She sat on the other plastic chair opposite me. "thanks for coming" she said "now I know you are no more angry with me" I didn't say anything. "you didn't attend lectures all through last week. what happened?" she asked "nothing" I responded "you just decided to stay at home" "yes" I responded. "I hope you had gone through all the topics we did that week" "yes" I responded. She looked into my eyes as if she was searching for something. "it seems you are a guy of few words" she said I didn't know what to respond. I just smiled. "please give me a minute" she said and went into her kitchen. That was when I took my time to admire the beauty of her room. I haven't been able to observe her room since I came. her bed was just beside her wardrobe. her room was painted pink. posters of some popular celebrities could be since on the wall. while I was still admiring the beauty of her room, she emerged with two plates of rice in her hands. she placed it on the table beside me. she went back inside and returned with a bottle water and two glasses. she placed it on the table and sat opposite me. "okay, dinner is ready. I hope you will like it" she said. she served the food and started eating, while I stared at the food like I needed approval before eating. "are you not eating?" she asked when is realized I have not touched the food "I will" I said and quickly took a spoonful into my mouth. she stared at me as if she was trying to read what was on my mind. she smiled and continued eating her food. "I hope you like the food" "yes." I answered and fixed my gaze back on the food. she kept staring at me with smiles on her face. I tried not to look up from my food in order not to meet her gaze. Her continuous stare was making me uncomfortable. it was as if she was reading my mind. "for how long have you been this way?" she asked Her question got me really confused. I didn't understand her question "I don't get you" I said "you can tell me about it. it helps when you share it with close friends." she said I still didn't understand what she was trying to say "I really don't get you. what are you taking about?" I asked she smiled and dropped the spoon she was holding. "my uncle was once like you. things didn't go well for him because he decided to keep it to himself. he had to marry someone he didn't love." she said The more she speaks, the more I get confused. what does her uncle got to do with me. "Sylvia, what are you trying to say? you are getting me confused." I said "you don't have to hide it from me. I know already." she said "you know what?" I asked "I know that you are always nervous anytime you are alone with a lady. you are a shy guy" I froze immediately she made that statement. I stared at her in shock.

    Episode 14

    Sandra moved closer to me and held my hands. she stared into my eyes. I stared back at her in shock. she just defined me. it was not as if we had known each other for long. this was even my first time of being alone with her. how could she know that I'm always nervous whenever I'm alone with a lady.  "Christian" she called "you don't have to feel bad about it. you are not the only one with this trait. you can overcome it if you can tell people about it. my uncle too had this trait. his case was so bad that at the age of 30, he still couldn't approach ladies. He had no girlfriend. His parent had to get him a wife when he wouldn't introduce any lady to them. He had to accept the lady that was chosen for him because he had no other option. He never love the woman he married. He was later able to control his shyness when he told his close friends about it and they gave him advice which helped him. he became confident in himself and was able to approach ladies, but that didn't change anything because he was already married to a woman he didn't love. His religion doesn't support divorce, so he couldn't divorce his wife. All this happened to him because he kept his problem to himself. if he had open up earlier, he wouldn't have married someone he didn't love."  The pain I felt in my heart at that moment cannot be described with words. it was as if my heart would explode. I stared at Sandra with so much emotion. I have never be this emotional all my life. that was the first time I'm staring into a lady's eyes without being nervous. I was so pained. I tried not to speak, for the tears which had already formed in my eyes not to drop. she tightened her grip on my hands.  "Christian I believe you can overcome this. There is no problem without a solution. you have to help yourself. look for friends you trust and tell them your problem. you can solve you problem by telling people. people who you can trust. people who can advise you.  if you are confident enough to tell me about it, I will gladly give you a listening ear." she said and and fixed her gaze on my, waiting for me to share my problem with her.  I stared intensely at her. I couldn't get my gaze off her. I have never stared at a lady this way before. I wasn't myself anymore. I was destabilized.  "I.........." I paused  I couldn't speak. my lips were shaking.  "I............" I paused again.  The tears which I had been holding, dropped freely from my eyes.  "I have been this way all my life" I said as more tears flow from my eyes. "my childhood till this stage of my life had been so boring. I have no close friends. I don't know how to make friends. I don't always do things that I wished to do. I don't go to parties. I always get nervous when I'm in a crowded place. I don't know how to approach ladies. I can't start or maintain a conversation with a lady. I don't do things that normal human beings do. am I even a normal human being. tell me which normal human being will be behaving this way." I said as more tears dropped from my eyes.  The more I speak, the more tears flow from my eyes. I couldn't control myself anymore. I was crying like a baby. I didn't know I have been holding all this pain for a long time. Sylvia drew me closer to her and wrapped me in a warm embrace. that didn't stop the tears. I even cried the more. I soaked her cloth with tears. she tighten her grip on me.  "Christian you have to stop crying. Everything will soon be over." she said  I later stopped crying, but she didn't free me from her hold. she still wrapped me in a warm embrace. we remained that way for the next 20 minutes. we didn't say anything to each other. the room was very silent. I didn't know what happened next. All I could remember was that I slept off while she was still holding on to me.  I woke up an hour later with slight headache. I tried to sit up from the bed I was lying but was too week. The event that happened an hour ago flashed through my mind. that was when I realized I was still in Sylvia's house and was even lying on her bed. I sat up immediately. How did I get to her bed? All I could remember was that I was sitting on her chair. wait a minute, I even told her my problem. How did I get that much courage to tell her my problem. I even cried in her presence. I can't believe I just cried like a baby in a lady's presence. While I was still wandering in my thought, she emerged from her kitchen with a cup of tea. she smiled when she saw me.  "you are awake" she said  I didn't respond. she stretched the cup of tea to me.  "have this. it will make you get better"  I collected the cup of tea without taking my gaze off her.  "I want to go home" I said  "okay, but take that first"  I quickly down all the content and gave her back the cup  "thank you" I said  "you are welcome" she responded  "I will take my leave now" I said  "okay, but make sure you call me when you get home"  I nodded. I stood up from her bed and left her house. I left exactly 9:45pm.

    Episode 15

    I got home exactly 10:15pm. I lay on my bed, and the event which happened at Sylvia's house flashed through my mind. I still couldn't believe that I told Sylvia my problem. I have never told anyone this before. not even my family members. How can I be so courageous to tell a lady about it. And the fact that I cried in her presence still marvels me. I don't think I was in the right frame of mind then, because the normal Christian wouldn't have done all that.  The vibration of my phone brought me back to reality. I stared into the screen and saw that the call was from Sylvia. that was when I realized I was supposed to call her when I got home. I picked the call immediately.  "hello Sylvia" I said  "Christian, have you gotten home?" she asked  "yes, I just got home. I was about to call you before you called" I said  "okay, make sure you rest your body and don't think about anything" she said  "okay, thanks a lot" I responded.  "I will call you later to check on you" she said  "okay" I responded.  I ended the call and lay on my bed. I slept off few minutes later.  The vibration of my phone woke me up few hours later. I stretched my hand to my desk to get my phone. I picked up the call when I realized it was from Sylvia.  "hello Sylvia" I said, feeling sleepy.  "Christian, are you still in bed? aren't you supposed to be prepared for lectures by now"  I looked at the wall clock in my room and realized it was 7:15am. I was having my first lecture by 8am. so, if Sylvia didn't call, I wouldn't have woken up.  "I have taken my bath already. I will be in school in the next 15minutes" I lied to her.  "okay make sure you get to school on time" she said  "I will" I responded.  I ended the call and quickly rushed to my bathroom to take my bath.  I got to the school exactly 8:15am. I heaved a sigh of relief when I realized the lecturer was not yet in class. I located an empty seat and quickly sat down. the lecturer entered the class immediately I settled down. he went straight to the business of the day. After his lecture, he gave us an assignment which we were to submit in his next class. I left the class immediately to have breakfast. I didn't have breakfast before leaving home. on my way to the restaurant, I saw my course mates, Grace and Amanda walking towards me from a distance. I wanted to dodge but couldn't, because they saw me first.  "hi" I said when they got to me.  "Christian, thank God I met you here. I have been looking for you since the class ended. where are you heading?" Grace asked  "I am going........" I paused  "I am going........" I paused again.  I was thinking of where to tell them. I don't want to tell them that I was actually going to the restaurant.  "I'm just taking a walk" I finally responded  "it seems you are less busy. please I will need you to explain the assignment that was given to us today.it is very technical. I don't even know which formula to apply." Grace said.  "let's look for an empty class where you can explain it to us" Amanda added.  They dragged me along with them, without waiting for my response. they located an empty class, and we sat down on one of the long chairs in the class. they brought out their books and gave me a pen for me to begin. I held the pen for 2 minutes, trying to think of the best way to start.  "erm......" I paused  it seemed I was getting nervous again. why can't I just control this thing for once.  "Christian we are ready" Grace said  "okay" I responded  Just when I was still trying to deal with the ladies beside me, Janet and Judith, who are also my course mates walked into the class.  "so this is where you guys are hiding. and we have been looking for you all over the school." Janet said immediately.  "what are you guys solving, is it the assignment? Judith asked  "yes. Christian is trying to explain it to us" Grace answered  "have you guys gone far?" Judith asked  "no, we are about to begin" Grace responded  "Okay let's join you then" Judith said  Judith and Janet immediately sat beside us, making it 4 ladies that I would be sitting alone with in a class. it's obvious that I would embarrass myself. I know I won't be able to speak normally in the presence of these ladies.  "we are ready" Grace said  it is certain that the whole class would know that I'm a shy guy, because I'm going to mess up things here.  Just when I was about to say my first word, Sylvia walked into the class.  "so this is where you guys are" she said  It felt like a huge burden was lifted from my heart immediately I saw her.  "I hope you don't mind if I join you guys" she said, walking towards us.  "you can join us" I responded immediately.  Sylvia sat beside me and I heaved a sigh of relief.  I started the lecture with them, and until I finished, I didn't feel nervous. I couldn't believe that I just explained a whole topic to 5 ladies without being nervous. I observed that it was when Sylvia walked in that I gained confidence to teach them. it seems I'm now confident being with Sylvia. Even when she called me this morning and last night, I didn't get nervous when talking to her. I even picked her call without delay. I just pray things continue this way.

    Episode 16

    When I was done explaining the assignment to my course mates, they all left, leaving me alone with Sylvia in the class. we stayed silently in the class for a while before she finally spoke.  "are you going home once you leave this place?" she asked  "No. I'm going to the restaurant to have breakfast. I didn't have breakfast before leaving home." I responded  "why did you leave home without having breakfast?" she asked  "I was already late when I got prepared for school" I responded  "I thought you told me that you had already taken your bath when I called this morning" she said  "I lied. your call was what woke me up"  she hit me playfully on my shoulder  "and you made me believed you were already prepared for lecture when I called. so, if I didn't call, you wouldn't have gotten to school on time." she said  "I was very tired"  "okay, go and have breakfast before the worms in your stomach start protesting." she said  "okay" I responded  I stood up and walked to the door. I stopped halfway and turned back to face her.  "let's go together" I said  "I had breakfast before leaving home" she responded  I turned in disappointment and left the class. I still can't explain why I always want to have her by my side.  I went to the restaurant to have breakfast. just when I was about leaving the restaurant, my phone rang. I picked the call when I realized it was from Sharon. There is no need to be nervous. I knew what she wanted to say already.  "hello Sharon" I greeted  "hello Christian, have you left the school?" she asked  "yes, I'm on my way home" I lied  "I wanted to show you something, but don't worry, I will show it to you when I come to your place this evening for the tutorial. I hope you have not forgotten that our tutorial continue today" she said  "I haven't forgotten" I responded  "okay, see you this evening then" she said  "okay" I responded and ended the call.  I left the restaurant and headed home. I lay on my bed immediately I got home and didn't know when I slept off.  The vibration of my phone woke me up hours later. I picked up immediately.  "hello Sharon"  "Christian I'm on my way" she said  I quickly turned my gaze to the wall clock and realized it was 5:40pm already. how could I have slept this long.  "okay, I'm waiting" I responded.  I ended the call and sighed. I wasn't nervous when speaking to her, but I can't be so sure that I won't get nervous when she finally arrives I wouldn't want what happened the other day to repeat itself. it would be very disappointing if she comes all the way from her house and leaves without achieving her aim of coming. maybe I should just call Sylvia and ask her to come to my place. if she's here with me, I'm sure I won't be nervous. I thought.  I dialed her number immediately. she picked after the second beep.  "hello Christian" she greeted  "Sylvia, can you come over to my place"  "what happened?" she asked  "I want to show you something" I said.  "okay, I will be there in 20 to 25 minutes time." she said  " okay, thank you"  I ended the call and heaved a sigh of relief. I sat on my bed, waiting patiently for the two ladies to arrive. I prayed silently that Sylvia should get here before Sharon.  I heard a knock on my door 20 minutes later. I took a deep breath and prayed it should be Sylvia. I stood up from my bed and walked to the door. I sighed and slowly opened the door to find Sharon standing at the door. I masked my disappointment with a smile.  "you are here already. please come in" I said  "thank you" she responded and walked in.  She didn't sit on my bed this time. she sat on the plastic chair.  "I hope you are fine now" she said  "yes" I responded.  "okay, let's start then" she said and brought out her notebook from her bag.  "okay" I responded I sat on the other plastic chair.  while I was trying to look for the best way to start, a knock sounded on my door. I heaved a sigh of relief and thanked God silently. that should be Sylvia.  "let me see who is at the door." I said  I stood up from my chair and walked to the door. I opened the door with smiles on my face. the smile vanished immediately I saw Joy standing at my door.  "hi Christian" she greeted.  "hi" I mumbled  "you left school early today. I was looking for you. I want you to help me with the assignment that was given to us today. I have to come to your house since I didn't see you in school." she said.  "come in" I said, trying to keep a smile on my face.  she entered and saw Sharon already in my room.  "wow Sharon! you are here too" she said.  "yes. I came here for tutorial." Sharon responded  "Christian is tutoring you. I will like to join you guys." Joy said  I didn't pay attention to their conversation.  my only wish was for Sylvia to knock on my door. my eyes were fixed on the door. just when I turned my gaze away from the door, a knock sounded on the door. I rushed to the door immediately. I opened it to see Sylvia standing at the door. I felt like giving her a hug the moment I saw her

    Episode 17

    I invited Sylvia into my room. she paused at the door when she saw Sharon and Joy already in my room. she looked at me and smile. I really couldn't explain what that smile meant. she walked into my room and greeted Sharon and Joy.  "hi girls"  "hi Sharon" they responded in unison.  "you are here because of the assignment right" Joy said to Sylvia.  "yes" she responded.  "Christian let's start already. we are now three." Sharon said.  okay, let's start. I'm ready." I responded.  we all went to my bed and sat. I started the tutorial with them without feeling nervous. They asked questions from time to time and I answered their questions perfectly. when I was done, Sharon and Joy stood up to leave while Sylvia remained seated.  "are you not leaving?" Sharon asked Sylvia.  "I will. I just want Christian to explain a particular topic to me before leaving." she answered  "okay then, see you in school tomorrow" Sharon said  "see you too" Sylvia responded.  I followed Sharon and Joy to the door and locked the door immediately they left. I turned to see Sylvia smiling broadly. I knew something was on her mind, but I just couldn't figure it. I walked back to sit with her on my bed. I still don't know what Sylvia did to me that has made me so confident being with her. even sitting on the same bed with her without being nervous. she looked into my eyes with her face still curved in a smile and I held her gaze.  "so you invited me to your house because you are nervous of being alone in a room with Sharon and Joy" she said.  I never expected her to realize I actually invited her because of that, but she seemed to be smarter than I thought.  "yes, that was actually why I invited you" I confessed  she stood up from my bed and walked to the door. she stopped halfway and turned to face me.  "let's go" she said.  "go where?" I asked  "don't ask. just stand up and let's go." she said  I turned my gaze to the wall clock and realized it was already 9:45pm. where can we be going to by this time. I was feeling reluctant to stand up. she walked back to me, drag me up from my bed and led me out of my room. I didn't know where she was taking me to, but I just quietly followed her.  It was when I heard the loud sound of music booming from the speakers hanging on the wall, that I realized Sylvia actually brought me to a club house. my heartbeat increased the moment we set foot in that place. I was really nervous. I hate being in such places. The crowd and noise in the place is doing no good to me. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest. if Sylvia had told me that this was where we were actually coming to, I'm sure I wouldn't have come. everyone seemed to be engaged in one activity or the other. while someone were seen on stage dancing to the hot music booming from the speakers, others were seen drinking themselves to stupor. Sylvia located an empty seat at the far-left and we sat on it. she noticed that I was nervous and held my hand.  "look at me Christian" she said, encouraging me to look into her eyes.  I held her gaze and we stared into each other's eyes.  "you don't have to be nervous. I'm here with you." she said  yes, I don't need to be nervous. Sylvia is here with me. All will be fine. I assured myself.  It was as if her words did magic to me, because I became a bit relaxed.  "Christian" she called, with her eyes still fixed on mine. "you can overcome this. those thought you always have in mind, that discourage you from doing what you wish to do are not real. Your mind is only trying to play tricks on you. Don't always follow what you have in mind. sometimes, you just have to do the opposite of what your mind is telling you. If you always follow what you have in mind, it will hinder you from achieving great things in life. As an introvert, your mind will discourage you from doing both positive and negative things. I believe you know what's right. you just have to do what you believe is right and don't listen to what your mind is telling you. sometimes you get discouraged of doing things, because you don't want to make mistake. You always want to do things perfectly. Christian, we are humans, and humans are bound to make mistake. we are not perfect. so stop listening to that voice that is discouraging you from doing things you wish to do, because you don't want to make mistakes." she paused and took a deep breath.  "Christian" she called, with her eyes still fixed on mine. "you don't always have to bother about what people might think whenever you wish to do something. that's what is making you nervous. you always  think about what other people may feel when you do things you want to do. you always trouble your mind thinking about what others may have on their minds. the truth is that, they might just be worried about their own problem and wouldn't even care if you exist. stop worrying about what others have on their minds. it will only get you nervous. Do things you wish to do and stop bothering about others. take for example. right now you are nervous because you are in a crowded place, but no one seems to care about you. everyone seems to be involved in one activity or the other. you are only disturbing yourself, when no one cares if you exist." she paused again and took a deep breath.  "Christian you can overcome this" she continued "you just have to start now. little by little you will overcome it. you won't even realize how or when you suddenly became courageous to speak in a crowd."  I listened with keen interest as Sylvia speaks. everything she said about me was absolutely correct.  "thank you very much Sylvia. I'm very grateful. you are one in a million. I have heard all you said. I will start doing things I wish to do from now on" I said  "okay, but we can start from here" she said.  "how?" I asked  "look at that lady over there" she said, pointing to a direction.  I followed her direction and realized she was pointing at a lady sitting alone at the far-right. the lady seemed to be drunk already.  "I have seen her. Do you know her?" I asked  "I want you to approach her and get her number" Sylvia said  "what!!!!" I exclaimed "I don't even know how to start a conversation with a lady"

    Episode 18

    Sylvia gripped my hands and stared into my eyes.  "Christian, you can start learning now, with time you will get better" she said  "but what am I suppose to say to her when I approach her. I don't have anything in mind. I can't just walk up to her and keep staring at her face without saying anything." I said.  Sylvia took a deep breath  "okay. when you walk up to her, ask her politely if you can sit beside her. if she agrees, you sit down. if she doesn't respond, that also means you can sit. so you sit down. obverse her mood for a while, because it's base on that, you will know the next line of words to use. if she's happy and ready to have a conversation with you, you can flirt with her and say some nice words that would make her feel special. but if she's in a bad mood, then you don't have to flirt with her. just make it look like you are also in a bad mood. say things that would express how sad you are. things like ' how can my girlfriend dump me for my best friend. if she realizes you are just as sad as she is, she would be able to talk to you and even tell you her problem, because she would believe you will understand her better since you both are in a bad mood. you can asked for her number when she's done narrating her problem to you, and she will gladly give it to you. Now go to her. this is your first task" Sylvia said  This task is really a difficult one. I have never walked up to a lady and ask for her number. I'm sure that my mind will go blank when I get to her and I won't have anything to say.  "stop listening to what that voice is telling you right now. it will only discourage you, because it doesn't want you to make mistake. it wants you to be perfect all the time, which is not possible. if you keep waiting for when you will do things perfectly, then you will never do anything. do want you wish to do and stop listening to that discouraging voice." Sylvia said to me as if she was reading my mind.  "okay, I will go to her" I said  "good" she responded.  My heartbeat has increased already, when I have not even stood up from my seat. I need to do this. I won't listen to what my mind is telling me.  I stood up and walked slowly towards her.  my heartbeat increased in geometric progression with every step I took towards her. Her gaze was fixed on the floor. I got to her and stood beside her. she didn't notice my presence because she was still staring at the floor. my heart was pounding fast. my mind was telling me to turn and walk back or I will just embarrass myself, but I'm not going to listen to that voice. I don't want to disappoint Sylvia. she had been a great help to me. I will talk to this lady and face any embarrassment.  "hi" I greeted  she didn't respond  "can I sit?" I asked  she didn't respond. she didn't even look up from the floor her gaze was fixed on.  I slowly sat down, with my gaze fixed on her.  since Sylvia said I should sit if she didn't respond, I just have to sit. I waited for her to raise her head and face me, but she didn't. she kept staring at the floor. Sylvia said I need to observe her mood before choosing my line of words, but how am I suppose to do that when she's not even looking at me. I need to look for a way to get her attention.  "hello, are you with someone?" I asked  she raised up her head to face me immediately I made that statement. the glare she shot me sent shiver down my spine. her eyes were red, which showed that she was either crying or holding back the tears from dropping. I wanted to stand up immediately and leave, because she was not in the right frame of mind to talk to anyone. but I just had to remain seated and follow Sylvia's guideline. she kept glaring at me as if I was the cause of her problem. I was not just nervous. I was really scared. if those eyes were gun, I wouldn't be alive by now. about four bullets would have pierced into my body. I better stand up and leave because it's obvious that she wants to transfer her aggression to me.  I turned my gaze to Sylvia, to see if she would ask me to leave her, but she only shook her head which means I should face it. I turned my gaze back to the lady beside me to see her still glaring at me. I just have to follow Sylvia guidelines.  "some people don't have conscience" I said in a sad tone. "how can my girlfriend of four years dump me for my best friend"  I took the glass of wine on her table and down all the content.  "it's so painful" I continued. "when I thought we would spend the rest of our life together." I said  I took a side glance at her and realized she was listening to me with keen interest. she was no longer glaring at me.  "your girlfriend cheated on you too?" she asked  I nodded in affirmation.  "why are some people so cruel" she screamed.   I could see the number of eyes that stared at us when is screamed.  "did your boyfriend cheat on you?" I asked, not sure if I was supposed to ask.  she looked into my eyes. I could see pain in her eyes.  "not just my boyfriend, but my fiance. our wedding was supposed to be this weekend. I caught my fiance in bed with my best friend." she said as tears flow freely from her eyes.  "it's so painful. it hurts a lot. how am I suppose to leave without him. I love him so much. why will he hurt my feelings." she said as more tears flow from her eyes.  I was totally confused. I didn't know if I was suppose to console her or just keep staring at her. she took the bottle of wine on her table and down all the content. my eyes widen in shock. that was too much for her to drink.  It didn't take long for the wine to start having effect on her. she stood up from her seat and staggered to me. she gripped my cloth and stared into my eyes.  "whenever you see Gabriel, you should tell him that I can do without him. I can survive without him. I won't remain like this forever. he will regret doing this to me." she said, glaring at me as if I knew the Gabriel he was talking about.  she was suffocating me already by her grip. I turned my gaze to Sylvia for her to come to my rescue, but she only smiled.  I tried to free myself from her hold, but she held me tightly. how was I suppose to explain to her that I don't know any Gabriel when she was drunk. she started saying words that I don't understand, and all of a sudden, she slept off in my hands. I stared at her, confused of what to do next. why did I approach her in the first place. I looked at Sylvia with pleading eyes, but she only smiled.  I took her phone from her bag and went through her contact. I dialed the number she saved as sweet mum. that should be her mother. she picked and I informed her of her daughter present state. she promised to come get her in the next 30 minutes. I waited for 40 minutes before she finally came to carry her daughter.  I heaved a sigh of relief and walk back to meet Sylvia. I sat down beside her and didn't say anything to her. I was disappointed that she didn't assist me even when I pleaded.  "well done. you did a great job." she said.  "that lady almost strangled me. I need to use the restroom" I said and quickly stood up.  "okay" she responded.  I quickly rushed to the restroom without delay.   I emerged from the restroom few minutes later to see a guy standing beside Sylvia. I quickly hid in a place where I could easily eavesdrop on their conversation.  "hi" the guy said to Sylvia  "hi" Sylvia responded.  "are you alone?" the guy asked  "no, I'm with someone" Sylvia responded  "who" he asked  "my boyfriend" she responded  my face curved in a smile immediately she said that.

    Episode 19

    I emerged from the restroom few minutes later to see a guy standing beside Sylvia. I quickly hid in a place where I could easily eavesdrop on their conversation. 鈥渉i?the guy said to Sylvia 鈥渉i?Sylvia responded. 鈥渁re you alone??the guy asked 鈥渘o, I鈥檓 with someone?Sylvia responded 鈥渨ho?he asked 鈥渕y boyfriend?she responded my face curved in a smile immediately she said that. I turned and rushed back to the restroom for her not to realize I heard what she said. I came out moment later to see Sylvia sitting alone. the guy was no longer standing beside her. I walked to her and sat on the seat I was previously occupying. I kept a calm face as if nothing happened. 鈥淐hristian, what took you so long? you almost spend the whole day in there?she said immediately I sat down. 鈥淚 was 鈥︹€?I paused. I couldn鈥檛 find the right word to say. 鈥渓et鈥檚 start leaving. it鈥檚 late already.?she said I looked at my phone screen and realized it was 11:45pm. 鈥渙kay, let鈥檚 start leaving?I said and stood up immediately. She stood up also, carried her bag and we left the place. we got to a particular spot and parted to our different home. I got home exactly 12:35am. I quickly lay on my bed and took a deep breath. I have never stayed out this late before. the event that happened at the club flashed through my mind. All what Sylvia said about me was absolutely right. but how could she have known so much about me. I need to help myself to overcome this. I can鈥檛 keep behaving this way. it鈥檚 very boring. I need to associate more with people. Sylvia said I can overcome this if I start learning now. she said I shouldn鈥檛 listen to what I have in mind. she said I should do opposite of what my mind is telling me. maybe I should start by answering questions in class without bothering about the stares I might be getting. yes I will start with that. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest the moment I made up my mind to answer questions in class. I tried to get some sleep but couldn鈥檛. those discouraging voices kept sounding in my ears. 鈥榊ou better don鈥檛 stand up in class or you would just embarrass yourself. do you know how many eyes would be staring at you when you stand up. do you know how embarrassing it will be if you fail to answer the question correctly. what if the lecturer insults you because you didn鈥檛 get the answer right. you better just sit quietly in class and listen to the lecture.?that was the voice speaking to me. Sylvia had already said that the voice is not real. it鈥檚 just my mind playing tricks on me. I have to listen to Sylvia and disregard the voice. I will answer any question asked in class and see what happens next. my heart was seriously pounding fast. it鈥檚 was 2:am and I still haven鈥檛 slept. just because I have decided to answer questions in class, I couldn鈥檛 fall asleep. I was really nervous. I kept turning from one side to the other on my bed. I stayed awake till 3:am before I slept off. I woke up exactly 4:15am. I didn鈥檛 get enough sleep. I stayed awake all through, and when it was 6:45am, I got ready for school. I left home exactly 7:30am. I got to the class we were having our first lecture exactly 8:15am. I located an empty seat at the back and sat down. the lecturer walked in 5 minutes later and went straight to the business of the day. I listened with keen interest as he impact knowledge on us. He asked a question 20 minutes later. my heart missed a beat immediately I heard the question. can I do this? maybe I should just sit quietly while others answer the question. but how can I overcome this if I can鈥檛 answer questions in class. I need to do this. while I was still contemplating on whether to answer the question, someone stood up from the front seat and answered the question. The lecturer walked to the guy that answered the question and placed his right hand on his shoulder. 鈥測ou almost got it right, but you missed the most important part of the answer?he said to the guy The lecturer turned back to face the class. 鈥渨ho else can give us a better explanation??he asked I stood up immediately. all eyes in class turned to my direction. I tried not to think of anything else. I only focused my attention on the lecturer standing in my front. 鈥淐hristian you want to help us out??the lecturer asked. I nodded 鈥渙kay then?he said. I took a deep breath. I started by speaking slowly and later, I was speaking courageously. when I was done, I focused my attention on the lecturer to see if he would commend me or condemn me. He walked to me and placed a hand on my shoulder. 鈥済ood, good, good. you answered it just the way I want it?he said He turned to the class. 鈥減lease give Christian a round of applause?he said to the class. I felt on top of the world as my course mate gave me a standing ovation for answering the lecturer鈥檚 question. I slowly sat down and heaved a sigh of relief. so what Sylvia said is true. those thought I always have in mind, discouraging me from doing things are not real. I just have to keep doing things I wish to do without listening to any voice. I was so happy that I could answer question in class without being called to answer it. when the lecture ended, I didn鈥檛 leave the class immediately as I always do. I won鈥檛 listen to that voice telling me to leave the class immediately lecture ends . I have to do the opposite of what the voice is telling me, just like Sylvia said. I remained seated and awaited what would happen next. Sylvia walked up to me few minutes later and sat beside me. 鈥渨ow Christian! you made me so proud today. thanks for listening to my advice.?she said with smiles on her face. The fact that Sylvia was proud of me made me happier. I will surely do my best to overcome this. 鈥渢hanks Sylvia. thanks for the encouragement. you are one in a million.?I said 鈥測ou just have to continue this way. you won鈥檛 know when you will be so confident to speak in public.?she said 鈥渢hank you very much Sylvia.?I said again. 鈥渋t鈥檚 okay. you have said that more than ten times already.?I saw Sharon walking towards us few minutes later. maybe she was coming to remind me of the tutorial. she got to us and stood beside Sylvia. 鈥渉i Sylvia?she greeted 鈥渉i Sharon?Sylvia responded. she turned to face me 鈥淐hristian I hope you are good??鈥測es I鈥檓 good?I responded 鈥渙kay, Dr. Mike said you should see him in his office?Sharon said 鈥渨hy, what for??I asked confused. 鈥淚 don鈥檛 know?she responded. 鈥渙kay, let me go and see him then?I said I stood up and walked to Dr. Mike鈥檚 office. I kept wondering what might be the reason why he wants to see me. I got to his door and knock. 鈥測es come in?his voice sounded from within. I took a deep breath and walked into his office. he was seen sitting behind a table. neatly arranged files could be seen on the table. his gaze was fixed on a file he was holding. 鈥済ood morning sir?I greeted 鈥済ood morning. please have a sit?he said without taking his gaze off the file he was holding. I slowly sat down on the seat opposite him and waited patiently for what he wants to say. he dropped the file after some minutes and turned to face me. 鈥淐hristian?he called 鈥測es sir?I answered sharply. 鈥測ou have been selected to be among the three students that would deliver speeches in the event our department will be organizing next week. And your topic of concern will be on indecent dressing.?my heart paused for 2 seconds immediately I heard that statement. 鈥榳hat!!!! me!!!!!! speech!!!!!?I nearly screamed. if this lecturer is saying the truth, then I鈥檓 finished. An event that would have about 10 thousand attendees!! An event that would be attended by important figures. important figures like the minister of finance, minister of education and a host of others would be present in the event. maybe I should just collapse for this lecturer to believe that I鈥檓 not as capable as he thinks. Is this the way for me to overcome shyness? definitely not, because this is way too much.

    Episode 20

    I stood still staring at the lecturer without saying a word. he looked up from his table and fixed his gaze on me. 鈥淐hristian what鈥檚 wrong? you haven鈥檛 said anything since I told you about the event?Dr. Mike said 鈥測es sir, I鈥檓 ready sir. I will surely do my best sir?I said immediately. Dr. Mike observed me for a while. 鈥渙kay, you may leave now?he said. I turned and walked slowly to the door. I couldn鈥檛 even raise my legs. I opened the door and went out. I went to the class we had our first lecture to see if Sylvia and Sharon would still be there but they were no longer in the class. The class was already empty. I located a seat at the back and sat down. our next lecture was in the next ten minutes, but I didn鈥檛 feel like going. What Dr. Mike just told me had really changed my mood. I left home the morning with the aim of overcoming my shy nature. that was why I tried my possible best to answer questions in class today. but right now I鈥檓 doubting my capability of overcoming shyness . I鈥檓 scared that I will just embarrass myself and my department in the presence of thousands of people. I really can鈥檛 do this. I better look for a way to decline, in order not to embarrass my department. it would be so shameful if I will just stand in front of thousands of people and couldn鈥檛 say a word. the HOD would be very disappointed. my course adviser would be disappointed. all lecturers in my department will be so disappointed. I will just make it look like I鈥檓 ill when the day of the event draw closer. that will be the best thing to do. I was lost in my thought that I didn鈥檛 notice that Sylvia and Sharon were already standing beside me. it was when Sylvia called my name that I came back to reality. I turned to see them boring holes on my body. 鈥淐hristian, what are you thinking of? you didn鈥檛 even realize that we have be standing beside you for two minutes now.?Sylvia said I didn鈥檛 respond. Sylvia sat beside me and held my hands. 鈥渨hat鈥檚 wrong??she asked 鈥渘othing?I responded 鈥渁re you not going for the next lecture? it鈥檚 almost time??Sharon asked 鈥測ou both should go ahead, I will join you later?I said 鈥淪ylvia let鈥檚 go then?Sharon said to Sylvia. 鈥測ou can go ahead, we will join you later.?Sylvia responded. Sharon stood still for a while, staring from Sylvia to me and back to Sylvia 鈥渙kay?she said and left the class. Sylvia gripped my hands and stared into my eyes immediately Sharon left. 鈥測ou can talk to me now. what鈥檚 the problem??she asked I took a deep breath and stared back at her. 鈥測ou are aware of the event our department is organizing next week right?I said 鈥測es I鈥檓 aware. everyone should be aware of that.?she responded 鈥淒r. Mike called me to his office and informed me that I would be among the three students that will deliver speech on that day?I said 鈥渨ow!?she exclaimed 鈥渢his is great news?I looked at her, surprised that she was happy about it. 鈥渨hat鈥檚 good news??I asked 鈥渉ave you forgotten that I鈥檓鈥︹€??I paused as I couldn鈥檛 complete that statement. she patted my back. 鈥淐hristian this is the best way for you to overcome this shyness. you can do this?she assured me. 鈥淪ylvia, I can鈥檛 stand in front of that large crowd. I just can鈥檛鈥?I said. 鈥測ou can?she said. ?let鈥檚 go for our next lecture. forget about it for now. we will talk about it later.?鈥渙kay?I responded we stood up and headed straight for our next lecture. I didn鈥檛 pay attention to what the lecturer was saying. my mind was far from what was happening in class. I kept trying to assure myself that I can do this. the more I assured myself that I can do it, the more I get nervous. I left the school immediately lecture ended and went home. I needed to rest my head before it explode. I quickly lay on my bed to take a nap. The knock on my door woke me up hours later. I turned my gaze to the the wall clock in my room and realized it was 6:15pm already. I quickly sat up and stretched my body. that should be Sharon. she鈥檚 definitely here for the tutorial. I stood up from my bed and walked to the door. I opened my door and saw her already glowing with smiles. 鈥渉i Christian?she greeted. 鈥渉i?I responded 鈥渉ope you are ready?she said 鈥渟ure. please come in?She walked into my room and sat on my bed. I locked my door and went to sit beside her. though I was nervous but I won鈥檛 allow that to prevent the tutorial from holding. if I can鈥檛 be confident enough to be in the same room with Sharon, how then can I be confident to face a large crowd. I need to make sure that the tutorial goes smoothly. I won鈥檛 disappoint this time. 鈥渃an we start??Sharon asked. 鈥測es, I鈥檓 ready?I responded. She brought out a book and a pen from her bag and gave to me. I collected it from her and began immediately. I spoke confidently without being nervous. After a while of teaching, she moved closer to me and rested her head on my shoulder. I paused for a while, took a deep breath and continued. I fixed my gaze on the book I was holding as I tutored her. I didn鈥檛 take my gaze off the book. it was the best way for me not to get nervous. I continued that way and later decided to asked her a question, for the tutorial to be interactive. I asked her a question and waited for her to answer but I got no reply. I asked the question again but got no reply. I slowly raised my head to see her staring deeply into my eyes. cold shiver went down my spine, but I remained calm. I stared back at her. I was really nervous, but I didn鈥檛 take off my gaze from her. I don鈥檛 want her to realize I was nervous. we kept staring into each other eyes until she finally took her gaze off. I heaved a sigh of relief immediately. while I was still trying to gain control of myself, she turned back to me and stared deeply into my eyes. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as I stared back at her. All of a sudden, our faces drew closer to each other. her lips were almost touching mine. her eyes were already closed, but mine were wide open in shock. My door suddenly opened. I quickly turned my gaze to the door to see Sylvia standing at the door. she stared at us open-mouthed. Sharon quickly sat up properly and adjusted her blouse. Sylvia fixed her gaze on us for a while before she finally spoke. 鈥淚鈥檓 very sorry for barging in. I didn鈥檛 know you guys are busy. I will just take my leave now?she said. 鈥淪ylvia I鈥︹€?.?I tried to speak but she walked out of my room, slamming the door behind her. I quickly stood up from my bed and rushed out of my room but she was no where to be found. I returned to my room to see Sharon already standing. 鈥渕aybe we should continue tomorrow. let me leave for now?she said. 鈥渙kay?I responded. I lay on my bed immediately Sharon left my room. I sighed and took my phone from my bed. I dialed Sylvia number and waited for her to pick but she didn鈥檛 pick. I continued dialing her number but she still didn鈥檛 pick the call. I waited for about five minutes and dialed her number again, but this time, it was switched off. I dropped my phone on my bed and took a deep breath. why is she not picking my call? what is she thinking? I asked myself

    Episode 21

    I slept off 15minutes after Sharon left my room, without having dinner. I woke up 5:30am the next day. I quickly prepared for lecture. I made sure I had breakfast before leaving home. I got to class just exactly when our first lecture was about to begin. I located an empty seat at the back and sat down. I stole a glance at Sylvia, to see if she was staring at me, but she wasn鈥檛. her attention seemed to focus on what the lecturer was saying. I made up my mind that moment to approach her immediately after lecture and clear things up. lecture continued and I tried my best too to pay attention to what the lecturer was saying. Immediately lecture ended, Sylvia stood up and left the class before I could even approach her. I stood at a spot, wondering why she鈥檚 behaving this way. is she mad at me? I left the class to look for a quiet place where I could sit alone and clear my head of all worries. the faculty garden was the only place I could think of. it is always deserted during school hour. I located a seat at the far-left and sat. Just immediately I settled down, I saw Sylvia walking towards me from a distance. I heaved a sigh of relief immediately I saw. I will use this opportunity to explain myself to her. I need to clear things up. I sat down patiently for her to approach me. she got to me and stretched a book to me without looking at my face. 鈥淪ylvia I鈥︹€?鈥渢ake this book, it will help you a lot?she cut in immediately. 鈥淚 wanted to give you this when I came to your place yesterday, but since you were busy, I just had to take it back?she said, still not looking at my face. 鈥淪ylvia I鈥︹€??鈥渢ake it now. I have other things to attend to?she cut in again. I collected the book from her, and she walked out on me immediately, without sparing me a glance. I stared at her retreating figure for a while before turning my gaze back to the book she just gave me. ?secrets of the age?was boldly written on the book cover as the title. I stood up two minutes later and left the garden. I left the school immediately after lectures for that day and went home. I took the book Sylvia gave me and busied myself with it. I was marveled by what I discovered, after reading just four pages. I dropped the book and took my phone from my bed. I dialed Sharon number and she picked after the second beep. 鈥渉ello Christian?she said 鈥渉i Sharon, can we suspend today tutorial. I won鈥檛 be around this evening?I said 鈥渨here are you going to??she asked 鈥淚鈥檓 actually going to see someone?I responded 鈥渙kay, no problem?she said 鈥渢hanks very much. we will continue tomorrow?I said 鈥渙kay?she responded. I ended the call, took my wallet from my table and left my room immediately. 20 minutes later, I found myself standing at Sylvia鈥檚 door. I knock softly on the door and waited patiently for her to open her door. she opened the door a minute later and froze when she saw me. I could see the surprised look on her face. 鈥渨hat are you doing here??she asked 鈥淪ylvia let me explain?I said, not even sure of what I wanted to explain. 鈥淐hristian I don鈥檛 know what you want to explain. you owe me no explanation for your action?she said softly. 鈥淪ylvia what you are thinking鈥︹€??鈥淐hristian?she cut in 鈥渟top disturbing yourself. I鈥檓 not thinking about anything?鈥渂ut鈥︹€?.?鈥淐hristian?she cut in again 鈥測ou have a speech to deliver next week. focus your attention on that and stop disturbing yourself over nothing?I seemed not to understand why she was preventing me from saying what I have in mind, but I just had to remain silent since she didn鈥檛 want me to speak. 鈥渙kay, I will take my leave now. thanks for the book. I really appreciate it?I said I waited to see if she would respond but she didn鈥檛. I turned and left her place immediately. I got back home exactly 6:45pm. I lay on my bed and tried to think of a way to make Sylvia listen to what I have to say. I know she鈥檚 angry with me. if not, she would have listen to what I have to say. I heard a knock on my door few minutes later. I quickly turned my gaze to the door. I wasn鈥檛 expecting anyone. I already told Sharon that I won鈥檛 be around. so definitely, she won鈥檛 be the one at the door. I stood up from my bed and walked to the door. I opened the door to see Sylvia standing at the door. I stared at her open-mouthed. I never expected to see her standing at my door. I left her place not quite long and she was already at my place. I thought she was angry with me. 鈥淪ylvia?I managed to call 鈥減lease come in?she didn鈥檛 move an inch from the spot she was standing. she just kept staring at me. I stared back at her, not knowing what to say next. she brought out a book from her handbag and gave to me. 鈥渁dd it to the one I gave you before. it will help you overcome shyness.?she said 鈥渢hank you very much Sylvia. you are one in a million?I said 鈥渕ake sure you read the book?she said 鈥淚 will surely read it?I responded 鈥渁re you busy now??she asked 鈥渘o, I鈥檓 not busy?I responded quickly. Even if I was busy, I would have suspended everything I was doing just for her. 鈥渙kay, today is the school praise night. different fellowship in school would gather together to sing in front of a large crowd. I will also be singing in tonight 鈥榮 event. I want you to come and watch me sing.?she said I didn鈥檛 allow her to speak further. I rushed into my room, took my wallet from my bed and rushed out to meet her. 鈥渓et鈥檚 go. I鈥檓 ready?I said immediately. 鈥渢hanks?she responded We left my place and headed straight to the school.

    Episode 22

    I and Sylvia left my place and headed straight to the school. I was amazed by the large crowd I saw when we got to the school amphitheatre. The stage was set for the event already. I couldn't believe that such an event is happening in school and I was not aware. what then have I been doing in school. so if Sylvia didn't ask me to come along with her, I wouldn't have realized that such an event was holding in school. I stared at Sylvia in amazement.

    "how can such a big event be holding in school and I'm not aware of it" I said to Sylvia

    "why will you be aware, when you are not a member of any fellowship in school" she responded.

    "yes that's true, but I should have heard it from people" I said

    "how will you hear it, when you don't associate with people. Don't worry, after tonight's event, you will join the fellowship I belong to." she said.

    "wait, will you be performing in front of this large crowd?" I asked.

    "yes of course." she responded
    "you just have to watch me sing."

    "okay" I responded.

    "just look for a place to sit, while I  go and meet my group. the event will begin any moment from now" she said

    "okay" I responded.

    Sylvia went ahead to join her group, while I located a seat at the front and sat down.

    we waited for the next 20 minutes before the event finally began. The cool and soul lifting songs that were sang by the different groups that performed on stage, could make one forget his worries. I watched as Sylvia and her group sang with so much enthusiasm. they didn't even bother about the number of eyes that were staring at them on stage. will I ever be confident enough to stand on that stage just like them.

    when the event ended, I waited for Sylvia so that we could leave together. she came to meet me 30 minutes later. I could see smiles on her face.

    "how was my performance?" she asked with smiles.

    "wow! Sylvia, you are gifted. I didn't know you sing this great. your voice too is awesome." I said

    "thank you very much. I'm glad you like my performance. it means a lot to me" she said happily.

    "you're welcome" I said

    "okay, let's start leaving" she said

    "okay" I responded.

    we left the school and headed to our different home.
    I got home and lay on my bed. I rested for thirty minutes, then took the books which Sylvia gave me and busied myself with it. I got so engrossed on the book, that I read it till 3:am. I was amazed by what I discovered. the book highlighted a step by step procedure on how to overcome shyness. I really need to overcome this by all means. it has hindered me from doing things I wished to do. I made up my mind that moment that I would follow the guidelines in the book to overcome shyness. I will start putting what I just read into practice. little by little, I might overcome this.
    I finally slept off around 3:30am, after much deliberation on how I would overcome shyness.

    I woke up by 8:15am. I didn't have to rush this time, because my first lecture was by 10:am. I prepared breakfast and also got ready for school. I ate and left home exactly 9:30am. I got to school just when lecture was about to begin. I located a sit at the back and sat down.

    immediately lecture was over, Sharon stood up from her seat and walked towards me. she sat beside me when she got to me.

    "hi Sharon" I said immediately

    she didn't respond. we sat quietly for a while before she finally spoke.

    "what's going on between you and Sylvia?" she asked.

    I froze immediately I heard the question. I didn't know why she asked such question. I didn't even know what to respond. I only stared at her open-mouthed.

    "I don't understand" that was all I could say

    "something must be going on between you two, for her to behave the way she did yesterday. If not, she wouldn't have left your house just like that" she said.

    I was confused. I didn't understand what she was trying to say. what is she talking about?

    "Are you dating her?" she asked

    My heart paused immediately I heard that question. while I was still trying to recover from the shock her first question placed me in, she unleashed another one.

    "I.... I...... I.......I......." I tried to speak but couldn't.

    "so you guys are........" she wanted to speak further but suddenly stopped.

    I realized she suddenly stopped speaking because she saw Sylvia approaching us. Sylvia walked to us and stood beside me.

    "hi Sharon" she said to Sharon

    "hi Sylvia" Sharon responded.

    Sylvia shot me a glance and smiled. I could tell from the look on her face, that she noticed, Sharon stopped speaking because she was coming.

    "Christian are you busy?" Sylvia asked me.

    I couldn't find the right reply to give. I didn't know whether to answer yes or no. if I say no, Sharon might get offended, because she was actually having a conversation with me. if I say yes also, Sylvia might get offended.
    while I was still thinking of the best answer to give, Sylvia finally spoke.

    "it seems you are busy. I wanted to have a word with you, but since you are busy, we can talk later." she said

    Sylvia turned immediately and left. Sharon watched her until she was out of sight before she turned to face me.

    "Christian you have not answered my question. Are you dating Sylvia?" she asked.

    Not again, I thought she would have forgotten about that.
    I didn't respond. I just kept staring at her.

    "Christian why can't you answer my question. there's nothing difficult about it. it's just a yes or no question" she said when I didn't respond

    I took a deep breath and stared at her.

    "no, I'm not dating her." I finally responded

    she heaved a sigh of relief immediately. I didn't understand why she did that


    Episode 23

    I stared at Sharon, wondering why she heaved a sigh of relief when I told her that I'm not dating Sylvia. she didn't ask any more questions. she just stared at me for a while and spoke.

    "okay, you can go and meet Sylvia now. it seems she has something important to tell you" she said

    "okay" I said and stood up.

    I walked out of the class to meet Sylvia, but she was no longer in the faculty premises. Just when I was about leaving the faculty premises, I saw Mustack walking towards me from a distance. It suddenly crossed my mind that I was supposed to start practicing what I learned from the book Sylvia gave me. The first guideline I want to put into practice was how to approach ladies. The book highlighted a step by step guide on how to approach ladies. I will only follow the guideline in the book and see how it goes. I pray things work out fine.
    Mustack got to me and we shook hands.

    "Christian how are you?" he asked

    "I'm good and you"

    "I'm good too" he responded

    "are you busy?" I asked

    "no. any problem?" he asked

    "not really. I just want you to follow me to the faculty of engineering. there's this particular lady I saw in that faculty. she's just too beautiful. i haven't been myself since i saw her. I want to go and woo her" I lied

    Mustack laughed out loud immediately. he looked at me like I just said something funny.

    "you want to go and woo a lady from the faculty of engineering. when you can't even speak properly with ladies in your department. please be serious jor" he said

    "so you think I can't woo a lady. let's go to the faculty of engineering and I will surprise you" I said

    "you and I know that we will only be going there to waste our time, because you can't even approach a lady." he responded.

    I was annoyed by his response. I brought out my phone and gave to him.

    "if you can approach and talk to the first lady we see when we get there, and I don't do the same to the next lady we would see, then you can have my phone." I challenged him

    He stared at me with seriousness.

    "are you serious about this?" he asked

    "I'm very serious" I responded.

    "you mean I can take your phone if you can't approach any lady when we get to the faculty of engineering." he said.

    "yes" I responded.

    "wow! that means I won't have to buy another phone. I will just replace my old phone with yours. should I give you your sim card?" he asked.

    "why?" I asked

    "because the phone is now mine" he responded.

    "I will shock you. just wait and see" I said

    "you seem so confident. let's go then. I will be very happy if you can walk up to a lady and speak confidently with her" he said.

    The truth is, I'm not as confident as I made it look. I just have to believe what I read from the book Sylvia gave me. I had already memorized the steps. I just pray it goes as planned.

    "okay let's go" I responded.

    We left our faculty and headed straight to the faculty of engineering.
    After walking round the faculty for five minutes and couldn't find any lady, Mustack started complaining.

    "why will you have to bring me to this faculty, out of all the faculties in school. we all know that ladies don't study engineering courses. The ratio of girls to boys in this faculty is 1:99." he said.

    We walked for a while, before we saw a lady standing beside a tree at the faculty garden. Mustack turned to face me.

    "I will approach that lady and speak to her. I might even get her contact if possible. If you can't do same to the next lady we will see, then you won't get your phone back." he said in serious tone.

    without waiting for my response, he turned and walked to the lady. I watched from a distance as he approached the lady and stood beside her. Just after  few minutes of speaking with the lady, I could see her smiling.
    I waited for the next ten minutes, before Mustack finally left the lady and walked back to me.

    "what did you say to her?" I asked immediately he got to me.

    "don't ask me. just know that you won't be getting your phone back if you can't do the same" he said.

    "did you get her number?" I asked.

    "no. she said she can't  give her number to stranger. she seems to be proving difficult to get. I will get back to her later. I like ladies that always prove difficult to get. let's continue with our reason for coming here first." he said

    "so what's next?" I asked like I didn't know.

    "are you asking me? you approach the next lady we see and speak with her. if you can't do that, you will lose your phone" he said.

    "okay where should we go next?" I asked

    "let's look in those classes to see if any lady is still in the class" he said, pointing to the faculty building.

    "okay" I responded

    We went into the faculty building and search from class to class. we later saw a lady sitting alone in one of the empty classes. the lady seemed to be engrossed in the book she was reading that she didn't notice our presence. we watched her from the door for a while, before Mustack finally spoke.

    "it's your turn now. walked up to that lady and engage her in a conversation." he said

    "Mustack please let's look for someone else. that lady seems to be busy and won't like to be disturbed." I pleaded.

    "that was not our agreement bro" he said.

    "that lady won't pay attention to what I have to say, because she's busy. let's just look for someone else." I insisted.

    "no. we have already agreed that you will speak to the next lady we see. you better go and speak to her, or you won't get your phone back" he said.

    I took a deep breath.

    "okay, I will walk up to her and start a conversation with her" I said

    "good" he responded.

    I entered the class and slowly walked towards her. she didn't even notice that someone was in the class with her, because she was too engrossed in what she was reading. I got to her and stood beside her. I wanted to say 'hi', because I believe that's the first thing to say when you approach a lady, but I just have to remain silent and follow the guideline in the book I read. According to what I read in the book. when you approach a lady who seems to be busy and don't want any disturbance, you don't have to distract her by saying "hi". Just sit quietly beside her and wait until she notice your presence.

    I followed the instruction from the book and sat quietly beside her. she looked up from the book she was reading when she realized I was sitting beside her. she stared at me for a while and turned her gaze back to the book she was reading. I didn't stared back at her when she stared at me. I just kept staring into air with an expressionless look on my face. that was also the guideline from the book.
    she shot me a side glance after a while, maybe wondering why I chose to sit beside her out of all the chairs in the class, but I pretend I didn't notice. she seemed to be distracted already.
    I have to proceed to the next step from the book. According to the book I read. 'don't try to distract a lady with words, when she's busy. let your presence beside her, act as her distraction. when she is distracted, you can now say hello.'

    "hi" I finally said

    "hi" she responded

    I made sure that I maintained eye contact with her. that was also the instruction from the book I read. A lady can easily know that you are not confident speaking to her, if you can't maintain eye contact.

    "I hope I'm not disturbing you. I saw that this is the only quiet place I can read without any disturbance, that was why I came in" I said

    "oh, not at all. you are not disturbing me" she responded.

    "you're an engineering student right?" I asked

    "yes" she responded.

    "I always admire ladies that are studying engineering courses." I said

    " so what course are you studying?" she asked

    "Economics" I answered

    "oh, I have a friend in that department" she said

    "what's her name?" I asked

    "a guy actually" she said

    "oh. I see. what's his name" I asked

    "Frank" she answered

    I really couldn't believe that I could keep a conversation with a lady for this long. All thanks to sylvia for the book she gave me.

    "so what engineering course are you studying actually?" I asked

    "computer engineering" she responded.

    "wow! I initially wanted to study computer engineering while growing up. I just had to change my mind because I realize I don't have passion for it" I lied

    "computer engineering is an interesting course" she said

    "so what made you chose the course?" I asked.

    "I have passion for it" she responded.

    I took a side glance at the door and saw Mustack peeping from the door.
    I turned back to face the lady beside me with smiles on my face.

    "I have lecture in the next ten minutes. let me leave now so that I will get to the class on time" I said

    "okay" she responded

    I stood up, took just two steps away from her and turned back to face her.

    "sorry, you didn't tell me your name" I said

    "I'm Precious" she responded.

    "okay precious, I'm Christian" I said

    "okay Christian" she responded.

    I turned and walked out of the class with smiles on my face. the first thing I did when I came out of the class was to collect my phone back from Mustack.
    Everything I just said to that lady in that class was exactly what I read from the book Sylvia gave me. I was so happy that I could approach a lady and start a conversation with her.
    I left the faculty of engineering with just one thing on my mind, and that was to explore more.

    Episode 24

    I left the faculty of engineering
    with just one thing on my
    mind, and that was to explore
    more.

    I didn't go home immediately after lectures for that day. I went to a place called garden of eden around the school and sat on a seat beside a tree. I really couldn't state my reason for going there. The garden is always filled with people who want to relax their mind after lectures. I sat quietly, staring at ladies, trooping in and out of the garden. I kept admiring the beauty of God creation.
    My phone suddenly started ringing. I looked at the screen and realized the call was from Sharon. Then it occurred to me that I was supposed to tutor her. it was already 6:15pm and I was still in the school. I picked the call and placed the phone on my ear.

    "hello Sharon" I said

    "Christian where are you? I'm at your place already" she said

    "okay, just wait for me. I will be with you in the next ten minutes." I said

    "alright be fast. I have been standing here for close to ten minutes already" she said.

    "I'm on my way already" I said.

    I ended the call and stood up immediately. my phone rang immediately I stood up. I looked at the screen and realized the call was from Sylvia. I picked it up immediately.

    "hello Sylvia" I said

    "hello Christian, how are you?" she asked

    "I'm good, and you?" I asked

    "I'm good too" she responded.

    "you said you wanted to have a word with me earlier today, but when I came out of the class after I have ended my conversation with Sharon, I didn't see you." I said

    "yes, something came up and I had to leave school early. don't worry, we will talk when we see in school tomorrow" she responded.

    "okay, I will talk to you later. let me quickly rush home" I said

    "are you not at home already?" she asked

    "no, I'm still in school. I need to get home quickly because Sharon is already waiting for me" I responded

    "Sharon is at your place already?" she asked sharply.

    "yes she is at.........."

    "talk to you later" she cut in and ended the call immediately without allowing me to complete my sentence.

    I dropped the phone in my pocket and left the school immediately.

    I got home to see Sharon standing beside my door. the first thing she did when she saw me was to give me a tight hug. I froze at the warm feeling I was getting. her action caught me by surprise. I never expected to get a hug from her. she has never hugged me before and I see no reason why I deserved a hug from her now. she held on to me tight and I didn't know if I was supposed to hold her back.
    After a while, she freed me and stared into my eyes.

    "where have you been?" she asked

    "I went to get something from the vendor down my street" I lied

    "okay, let's go in" she said.

    I unlocked my door and we entered. I locked it from inside by fastening a bolt to the hook on my door. we went to my bed and sat down. I waited for her to bring out her notebook so that we can start the tutorial, but she didn't. she just sat quietly on my bed, staring into space.
    My door suddenly opened and we turned our gaze to the door to see Sylvia already inside my room. she paused at the entrance when she saw us. we fixed our gaze on her and she stared back at us with remorse.

    "actually I...... I........... I....... I thought......" she stammered
    "I actually thought....." she paused
    "I'm sorry. I should have knocked"

    while she was trying to explain herself, I kept wondering how she got in. I thought I locked the door. it suddenly occurred to me that same thing happened the last time she visited. I locked my door from inside and she opened it from outside. I wanted to ask her how she got in when the door was locked, but chose not to ask because she might give a different meaning to the question. I also thought she already told me that we will see in school tomorrow when we spoke on phone. why is she here all of a sudden. all these and other questions were on my mind but I chose not to ask.

    she closed the door and walked slowly to us.

    "hi Sharon" Sylvia greeted Sharon.

    Sharon only waved her hand without saying anything.

    Sylvia walked to my bed and sat down beside me.

    "Christian you know we were supposed to have a discussion today in school but couldn't because I left school early. I will just wait for you to finish up with Sharon so that we can have our discussion" she said and immediately lay on my bed.

    Sharon stared at her for a while before she turned to face me.

    "Christian let's start our tutorial please" she said

    I could see the look of disappointment on her face when she said that.

    "okay, let's start then" I said

    she gave me her book, and I began immediately.
    After ten minutes of teaching, I noticed that she was not paying attention. she just kept staring into air. her mind seemed to be somewhere else.

    "Sharon" I called to bring her back to reality

    she turned to face me

    ""you have not been listening" I said

    she didn't respond. she just packed her books back into her bag and stood up.

    "let's continue another day" she said and walked to the door.

    she walked out of my room and closed the door behind her. Sylvia suddenly sat up with smiles on her face immediately Sharon left. she stood up from my bed and walked to the door.

    "where are you going?" I asked

    "home of course" she responded.

    "I thought you said you have something to tell me" I said

    "I will tell you when we see in school tomorrow. let me leave you for now so that you can prepare the speech you will deliver next week" she said.

    shiver went down my spine at the mention of the word speech. I have totally forgotten about the speech. I have not even made any preparation towards it. I made up my mind that moment to start all necessary preparation.

    "okay" I responded.

    she walked to the door and went out. I stood up immediately I went to my door. I wanted to know how she managed to enter my room when I locked the door from inside. I locked the door same way I did before she came in. I held the door knob and turned it but it didn't open. I turned it again and forcefully pulled the door and it opened. I looked at the hook on the door and realized it had broken a bit and could not hold the bolt properly. so that was why Sylvia could get in even when I locked the door. I thought. I made a metal note to get a new hook.

    Episode 25

    I walked back to my bed and sat down immediately Sharon and Sylvia left my room. I took the book Sylvia gave me and opened to the page that highlighted step by step guideline on how to speak confidently in a large crowd.
    After reading for a while, I took a pen and write down some tips. I used the next 4  hours to prepare the speech I would deliver in the event my department is organising. I finally slept off by 1:15am.

    I woke up exactly 5:30am. I quickly prepared for lecture. my first lecture for the day was by 8:am. so I have to leave home early in order to get to school on time.  I had breakfast and left home exactly 7:am.

    I got to the class our first lecture was holding and settle down. the class was almost filled up when I get there. the lecturer walked into the class few minutes later and went straight to the business of the day.
    immediately after lecture, Sylvia walked to me and sat beside me

    "hi Christian" she said immediately.

    "hi Sylvia. how are you?" I asked

    "I'm fine and you?" she asked

    "I'm fine too" I responded

    "I hope you had a great night" she said

    "yes" I responded

    "and I hope you had enough time to prepare your speech" she said.

    I didn't respond this time. I only stared at her. I still don't know why I always get scared at the mention of that word 'speech'

    "are you not prepared for it yet?" she asked

    "I don't just know if I'm prepared or not. I'm still very scared" I responded.

    "don't worry, you will overcome your fear. just keep working on it" she said

    "thank you very much Sylvia." I said

    "do you have any other thing to do now?" she asked.

    "no, why do you ask?" I asked

    "I want us to have our discussion now" she said.

    "okay, I'm ready" I responded.

    "not here. let's look for an empty class where we can be alone." she said

    "okay" I responded.

    we stood up and left the class. we located an empty class and sat on the seat at the back. we sat quietly for a while. I decided to speak when she wouldn't speak.

    "Sylvia, we are here now. let's start the discussion" I said

    she turned to face me and stared into my eyes. I stared back at her.

    "Christian" she called softly.

    "yes Sylvia" I responded

    "have you ever fallen in love?" she  asked

    I froze immediately. I never expected such question from her.

    "I........ I......... I...... " I couldn't say anything. I didn't even know what to reply her.

    "Christian you know we don't hide things from each other. so you can talk to me" she said.

    I took a deep breath.

    "the truth is, I have come in contact with a lot of nice ladies that I love and would love to spend the rest of my life with, but due to my shy nature, I couldn't approach them and I lost them all" I responded.

    "aside from the tutorial, do you and Sharon have any other thing together. are you dating her, or intend to date her?" she asked and stared curiously at me, waiting for an answer

    I couldn't respond. I seemed not to understand why she was asking all these questions. Sharon too, asked me same question some days back.

    "Christian please answer the question" she said when I didn't respond.

    "I'm not dating her" I finally responded.

    "that means your relationship with her is strictly based on student and tutor relationship" she said

    "yes" I responded

    she heaved a sigh of relief.

    "if you find out that someone love you dearly and is ready to do anything for you, what will you do?" she asked.

    I really didn't know why she was asking all these questions , but I just have to answer her question from my heart.

    "if I realized someone love me for real, I will make sure I never let her go" I responded.

    Her face curved in a smile immediately I said that.

    "okay Christian, there's something I want to tell you" she said and stared at me with seriousness.

    "what's it?" I asked

    "Christian I really don't know if I should say this. it's not proper for a lady to say this to a guy in this part of the world. I just have to say it in order not to regret later." she paused and stared deeply into my eyes.
    "Christian I.........." she paused immediately she heard the vibration of my phone.

    "you have a call" she said.

    I brought out my phone and stared at the screen. I picked the call when I realized it was from Sharon.

    "hello Sharon." I said

    "Christian where are you? can you please come to the faculty garden. I have something important to tell you" she said immediately.

    "what is it?" I asked

    "just come to the faculty garden and please be fast" she said.

    "okay, I'm coming" I responded and ended the call.

    I turned to face Sylvia and saw her already staring curiously at me.

    "what happened?" she asked

    "Sharon said I should meet her at the faculty garden right now" I responded

    "I hope there's no problem?" she asked.

    "I don't think there is a problem. maybe she has a message for me from a lecturer. and I think it very urgent." I responded.

    "okay you can go and meet her" she said.

    "okay thanks" I responded.

    I stood up immediately and rushed to the faculty garden.

    I saw Sharon standing beside a tree when I got to the garden. Sharon seemed to be the only one in the garden. I didn't see any other person when I got there. she smiled when she saw me and beckoned me to come. I walked to her and stood beside her.

    "Sharon I hope there's no problem" I said immediately.

    "not at all dear" she responded.

    "you said you have something important to tell me. what is it?" I asked

    "yes I have something to tell you." she said and stared into my eyes.
    "do you have a girlfriend?" she asked.

    not this question again. I thought

    "no" I answered immediately

    "I actually want to.........." she paused immediately. something seemed to have distracted her from speaking further. she fixed her gaze at a particular direction. I was sure she was looking at what distracted her from speaking further. I tried to look at what distracted her but she immediately hugged me. I froze immediately. I never expected such from her. saying I was shocked, was an understatement. she freed me and smile. I slowly turned to the direction she was staring at to see Sylvia staring at us in shock. then it occurred to me that she actually did that because she saw Sylvia coming.
    I stared at Sylvia and she stared back at me with teary eyes. she turned immediately and ran out of the garden.
    I knew at that moment that I have lot of explanation to do. that's if she even listen

    Episode 26

    After staring at the retreating figure of Sylvia for a while, I turned back to face Sharon. Her face was still curved in a smile. I stared at her, not knowing what to say next. After staring silently at each other for a while, she finally spoke.

    "I think we should leave now. I will come to your place later in the evening for the tutorial." she said

    I thought she has something important to tell me.

    "Sharon" I called

    "yes dear" she responded.

    "I thought you wanted to tell me something important" I said

    "yes, but let's leave that for now. when I come to your place for the tutorial, I will tell you." she responded.

    "okay" I said

    "where are you going from here?" she asked

    "I don't know. anywhere the spirit leads me" I responded.

    "okay, I'm just asking so that I won't get to your place and start waiting" she said.

    "you won't have to wait. I will get home on time" I assured her.

    "okay let's leave then" she said.

    we left the garden and went our separate ways.
    I found myself going back to the garden called, the garden of eden in school. I couldn't explain why I was going back there. the last time I was there, I didn't do anything important aside from staring at ladies trooping in and out of the garden. the garden is a perfect place for lovers to show how much they love each other. you would always see a guy and a lady doing all sort of things when you get to the garden. it is the only place in school where students are free to do whatever they like without any disturbance. it is believed that the garden of eden is the only place you can woo a lady and ask her to come over to your place at that spot, and she would agree without any stress. it is also believed that ladies who usually come to the garden are those who want to explore the world and use the freedom they have gotten to the maximum, after being held bondage by their parent before gaining admission. so wooing a lady in the garden of eden is as easy as abc. they don't prove difficult to get, and if you play your card well, she might agree to go to you place with you.

    I made myself believe I was going to the garden to clear my mind of all worries and nothing else. I got to the garden, and as usual, the place was already filled with guys hanging out with their woman. I located an empty seat beside a tree and sat down. I kept staring at ladies trooping in and out of the garden. I didn't do anything else aside from staring at any lady that passed my way. I was enjoying what I was seeing. it was really pleasing to the eyes. After about an hour, I heard someone called my name from behind. I recognized the voice. I quickly turned to see Kate standing behind me. her face was curved in a smile. she walked to me and sat beside me.

    "Christian, how are you?" she asked

    "I'm good and you?"

    "I'm good too" she responded

    Her mood suddenly changed.

    "Christian I'm really angry with you" she said.

    "why, what did I do?" I asked

    "don't ask me. just know that I will never set foot in your house again" she said

    "this is serious. please tell me what I did wrong, so that I will know how to correct my mistake." I said.

    "you have to find out yourself. I can't tell you that. just take your mind back to the last time I visited you. you will realize your mistake." she said

    "okay, I will try find out what I did wrong, and when I realize it, I will surely come back and make correction." I said

    "hmm, maybe that will be when we have already graduated from this school." she said

    "I promise you, I will find out very soon" I said

    "okay, let me believe you then." she said
    "I have to leave now. I have an important appointment by 6pm"

    "okay" I responded.

    she stood up and left the garden. I continued staring at ladies trooping in and out of the garden when Kate left. I turned my gaze to the left and saw a lady staring at me. she was sitting alone at the far-left of the garden. I stared back at her without blinking. After a while of staring at each other, she stood up and walked towards me. she got to me and sat beside me.

    "hi" she greeted

    "hi" I responded

    "I guess you haven't seen your spec" she said

    "I don't understand" I said, confused.

    "don't pretend not to know what i'm talking about. I know why you are here. you are looking for the next lady who would warm your bed. I have been watching you for a while now. I saw you staring at every lady that passed your way. I guess you have not seen any lady that match your taste." she said.

    look at how this lady is laying false accusation on me . I thought. I have to play along to see what she was driving at.

    "so you caught me already. you can't blame me. man got to ease himself of some stress. it is not bad to mingle and have fun after the day's stress" I said

    "so you have not seen anyone to mingle with since you have been here" she said

    "not really. I have not seen any lady that match my taste. it won't be a bad idea if we mingle. since we are both alone" I said.

    "you mean the both of us?" she asked

    "yes" I responded

    She laughed out loud immediately.

    "sorry, you are not my type" she said

    I was hurt by that statement, but I remained calm.

    "so can you describe your kind of guy to me" I said

    "guys with flashy cars" she responded

    "I see. so how are you so sure that I'm not your kind of guy, when you are only seeing me for the first time" I said

    "do you have a car?" she asked.

    "you will have to find out yourself" I said

    "how?" she asked

    I wanted to speak but my phone started ringing. I brought out the phone from my pocket and realized the call was from Sharon.

    "give me a minute" I said to the lady beside me and picked the call.

    "hello Sharon" I said

    "Christian I hope you are at home, because I'm already on my way to your place." she said

    "yes I'm at home" I lied

    "okay I will be there very soon" she said

    "okay" I responded.

    I ended the call and turned to face the lady beside me.

    "that was one of your girlfriend right?" she asked

    "something like that. I have to start leaving now. she needs me" I said

    "okay" she responded

    "so what's your name" I asked

    "I can't tell you that now. maybe when next we meet. and make sure you are with your car when next I see you" she said

    "okay" I responded.

    I stood up and left the garden.
    'that lady is something else' I said to myself as I left the garden.

    Episode 27

    I left the garden and went straight home. I got home exactly 5:55pm. I lay on my bed to rest a bit before Sharon comes. any moment from now, she will be here. I thought
    I waited for the next 30 minutes but she didn't show up. I thought she said she was on her way already. I waited for the next ten minutes but she still didn't show up. I took my phone from my bed to call her. immediately I took my phone, her call came in. I picked the call immediately.

    "hello Sharon, where are you?" I asked

    "I'm very sorry Christian. I won't be coming anymore. I got a call from the course adviser that all course rep should assemble in school. I'm on my way to the school now" she said

    "you are going back to the school by this time. isn't it late already. can't they wait until tomorrow" I said

    "have you forgotten that tomorrow is Saturday." she said

    "yes that's true, but whatever they have to tell you guys should have waited until Monday" I said

    "it can't wait. it's very urgent. it's concerning the event our department is organising on Monday. The HOD wants to pass all necessary information to us." she responded

    "oh I see. till Monday then" I said.

    "yes. I will talk to you later" she said

    "okay" I responded and ended the call.

    I took a deep breath.
    ' the day of the event is already very close. so by Monday, I will be standing in front of a very large crowd.' I thought. I don't even know if I'm prepare to face the crowd. I have never faced such crowd before, so I don't know what it feels like to be standing in front of a large crowd. I have already memorized all what I will say, but I can't be so sure that my mind will not go blank when I see the large crowd. can I actually do this? could it be that my mind is only trying to discourage me. could it be that discouraging voice that is speaking to me now. Sylvia said that I shouldn't listen to the voice, because it will only get me nervous. talking of Sylvia, I haven't seen her since the last incident. I have to go and explain things to her.

    I stood up from my bed, took my phone and left my room immediately.

    twenty minutes later, I was standing beside Sylvia's door. I waited for the next 5 minutes before I finally knocked.

    "hold on I'm coming" I heard from within.

    she opened the door a minute later. I could see anger visibly on her face the moment she saw.

    "Sylvia I am.............."

    she entered her room back and slammed the door without allowing me to complete my sentence.
    I waited to see if she would open the door but she didn't. I waited for the next 30 minutes but she still didn't open the door. when I was tired of waiting, I turned and left her place.

    I got home 30 minutes later. I lay on my bed immediately I entered my room.
    'Sylvia is very angry with me. I need to look for a way to make her forgive me. she doesn't want to even see my face. let me just leave her for now. I will talk to her later, when I believe she won't get angry. for now, let me just focus my mind on the speech I will deliver on Monday. I need to prepare myself very well so that I won't mess up.

    I took the book Sylvia gave me and busied myself with it immediately. I opened to the page that contain step by step guide on how to overcome stage fright. the book has really helped me, and I believe if I follow the guideline in the book, I will be able to face the crowd on Monday.
    I read the book until 1am. I finally slept off when I was tired of reading, with the aim to continue when I wake up.

    I woke up very early. I quickly took my bath and had breakfast. I busied myself with the book when I was done with all my chores. I made sure I practice some tips as I read. I didn't do anything else aside from reading and rehearsing.

    The next day which was Sunday, I continued same way. I read until my vision became blur. then it occurred to me that I have over read.
    I couldn't sleep that night, because I knew that once I wake, it would be the day of the event.
    I was more than ready for the event, but I was still very scared. I was scared because it would be my first time of facing such crowd. I was sure I will do very fine if I follow the guidelines in the book, but that discouraging voice wouldn't let me be. it kept sounding it clearly to me that I will embarrass myself. the voice was doing no good to me, because I was already having headache. I tried to get some sleep for me to wake up early but couldn't. after 30 minutes of restlessness, I finally slept off.

    I woke up hours later. I turned my gaze to the wall clock and realized it was 6:25am. the event will begin by 11am. there won't be lectures, so my only reason of going to school was because of the event.
    I had my bath and got ready for the event. I made sure I had enough breakfast. I left home exactly 10am.

    I got to school 30 minutes later. I went straight to the place the event will hold. the event will actually hold in the school main auditorium. the number of people I saw when I got to the main auditorium made my heart missed a beat. the crowd was more than I expected. the auditorium was already filled up when I got there. the stage was already set for the event, and I could see some important figure already sitting on the high table. the minister of finance was already seated, and the minister of education was also seen sitting beside the minister of finance. the vice chancellor of the university was also seen on the high table. some of the lecturer in our department were seen occupying the front seat in the auditorium. the other two students that will also deliver speech were also seen occupying the front seat. about ten thousand people were occupying the seats in the auditorium, waiting patiently for the event to begin. the M.C was also seen standing on stage.
    I quickly went to sit beside the other two students that will deliver speech.

    Five minutes later, the event began. The M.C started by recognizing the presence of all important figure in the auditorium.
    After five minutes later, the HOD went up stage to introduce the event properly. some lecturers also went up stage one after the other to speak.
    now, it was time for the students to deliver there speech.
    The M.C called the first student and he went up stage to deliver his speech. I was really nervous. my heart was pounding. I didn't pay attention to what the guy on stage was saying. I might be called next. can I do this? I asked myself.

    Everyone gave the guy on stage a big round of applause when he was done. he walked back to sit on the seat he was previously occupying.
    The M.C went back on stage with a book in his hand.

    "that was a great speech" the M.C said
    "now the next student on the list is Christian Owen"

    My heart paused immediately I heard my name.

    Episode 28 (Final)

    Everyone gave the guy on
    stage a big round of applause
    when he was done. he walked
    back to sit on the seat he was
    previously occupying.

    The M.C went back on stage
    with a book in his hand.

    "that was a great speech" the
    M.C said
    "now the next student on the
    list is Christian Owen"

    My heart paused immediately I
    heard my name. I slowly stood up and walked to the stage. I turned and face the crowd.  thousands of eyes were staring at me. my heart was pounding.
    Christian you can do this. I assured myself. Christian be focus. I said to myself. I stared from one person to the other in the auditorium. my eyes suddenly caught Sylvia sitting at the back seat. she was staring deeply at me. she stood up from her seat and walked to the front. she located a seat in a spot where I could get a clearer view of her and sat down. she fixed her gaze on me but she wasn't smiling. I could get a clearer view of her from where I was standing. she was wearing a blue skirt and a white top. her white top had the words 'you can do it' inscribed on it.'  I needed no one to tell me that she purposely wore that top just to encourage me. even when she's angry with me, she still came to encourage me. I couldn't hide the smile on my face. I was smiling broadly. though, she didn't smile, but she never took her gaze off me. Sylvia is truly one in a million. sometimes, you wouldn't know how valuable someone is to you, until you have lost that person. Sylvia is more than valuable to me. I wouldn't know what my life would become if I lose someone like Sylvia. it will be very regrettable. I better set things straight before it's too late. I will surely go to her immediately after this event and clear things up. the words that were inscribed on her dress boost my confidence.
    'thank you Sylvia for being there for me'

    I turned my gaze away from her and faced the crowd with confidence.
    I started by recognizing the presence of the minister of finance, the minister of education, the vice chancellor of the university, and every other high profile individuals in the auditorium. without wasting any time, I went straight to my reason of standing there. I spoke courageously. I didn't miss a single word I had memorized. I didn't paused for a second. I delivered the speech with confidence.
    Everyone in the auditorium gave me a standing ovation when I was done. I felt on top of the world. the smile on my face was visible. I needed no one to tell me that I did a very good job. if I could stand in front of a large crowd like this and speak confidently, then there is no where I couldn't stand to speak. if I could start a conversation with the lady I saw in the faculty of engineering, and also maintain a conversation with the lady I saw at the garden of eden, then there is no lady I can't speak to. if I could be in a company of ladies like Sylvia, Sharon, Kate, Joy, among other and still interact freely with them, then I think I'm no longer that shy guy . there is still one thing left for me to do, and I will surely do it once I leave this stage.

     I turned my gaze to where Sylvia was sitting and saw her leaving the auditorium. so she actually came here just for me. even when she was angry with me, she still came to support me. I need to set things straight right now or I might never get another opportunity.

    I left the stage and followed the direction Sylvia took. I went outside the auditorium but couldn't find Sylvia. I search in all the corners outside the auditorium but still couldn't find her. maybe she would have gone home already. I have to go to her place and set things right. I have no reason to remain in the auditorium. I have already delivered my speech so I'm free to go. I need to be at Sylvia's place right now. I have this fear that I might not have the opportunity to set things straight again if I waste anymore time.

    I quickly rushed to the bus park. I took a bus that will convey me directly to Sylvia's house.

    I got to her place and stood beside her door. I prayed silently that things should go well. I knocked softly on the door but didn't get any response. I knocked again and waited patiently for her to open the door. she opened the door a minute later. she glared at me when she realized I was the one at the door. she wanted to lock the door back but I quickly held the handle of the door and prevent her from locking it. she tried to forcefully remove my hand from the door handle but couldn't. after several attempt, she finally left the door opened and walked into her room. I entered her room and saw her facing the wall. she was backing me. I walked to her and stood behind her.

    "Sylvia I........" I paused as I couldn't find the right word to say.

    I held her right hand from behind but she forcefully freed her hand from my hold.

    "don't touch me" she barked.

    I tried to hold her again but she refused

    "I'm warning you, don't touch me" she barked again.

    I stood silently behind her, not knowing what to do next. after a while of silence, I finally spoke.

    "Sylvia I......."

    "don't call me" she cut in immediately.

    I didn't know what next to do. I stood behind her without saying a word. when she wouldn't turn to face me, I decided to do it my way.
    I quickly grabbed her hand, turned her forcefully to face me, drew her closer to myself and hugged her. she froze immediately I did that. she stared at me open-mouthed and couldn't say a word. I didn't take my gaze off her. we stared intensely at each other. after a while of silence, I finally spoke.

    "I can't hide it anymore. my heart might just explode if I continue keeping it to myself. I have to let it out" I paused and stared deeply at her.

    "I love you Sylvia" I let it out

    she stared at me with so much emotion. her face suddenly curved in a smile. she drew closer to me and wrapped her hands round my neck.

    "I love you too Christian. I love you so much" she responded.

    we stared silently at each other. her hands were still wrapped around my neck.

    "I am......." I wanted to speak but she quickly hugged me. all other things that transpired between us in her room, should be left for the imagination. I knew very well that once I leave her place, I would no longer be that shy guy.

    I won't say that I have totally overcame shyness, but one thing I know for such is that, I would no longer be that shy guy who couldn't speak in crowd, who couldn't talk to ladies and who couldn't do things he wish to do. because all that would be a thing of the past.

    if someone as shy as Christian could control his shy nature, then there's no one that can't control his. atleast to a level that it won't affect their social life. don't allow that negative voice to always dictate how you leave your life. don't allow that voice to affect your social life. when you feel like doing something, do it without listening to that negative voice. if you love a lady, tell her how you feel. don't be scared of rejection. if you couldn't tell a lady you love how you feel about her, you will only regret it later. if you love a lady and couldn't tell her how much you love her, then you are selfish. do you know what those words could do to that lady's life, if only you can tell her. don't limit yourself.

    being an introvert does not limit you from achieving your dream. it is believed that introverts are deep thinkers. if only you can bring those things you have in mind to reality, the world would be better than this. the world needs you. the world needs to hear from you. don't just leave those great things you have in mind to remain in your mind, just because you are scared of failure. bring it to reality. Everything you see in the world today, was once in someone's mind. the cars, plane, buildings and every other things you see today, was once an imagination of people which they chose to bring to reality. if those people decided not to bring what they have in mind to reality, then this things wouldn't have been in existence.

    don't limit yourself. the world needs to hear from you. don't allow that talent of yours to be wasted because you think you won't succeed if you give it a try. you won't know how good you are at something until you give it a try. don't allow your shy nature to limit your potential. you are born to be great. be great!!!!

    make sure you just don't read this story, work on yourself, aim to be great and you will be great.

    THE END!!!!

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